Katie,

Take it from someone that has been in the business longer than you have. I am also two years younger than you and I will tell you now that posting all your troubles on your blog is not attractive. Believe it or not, most men come to us to get away from the drama they have at home, work.. etc. They really don't want to hear us bitch and moan constantly. It is not their fault that you are going through what you are going through. You had this problem prior to entering this hobby and IMHO you probably shouldn't have gotten in this business at this point in your life. Katie, Most guys ... really just want a great conversation......and a great fuck. I am 22 years old and I learned early on that there are both good and bad people in this hobby. Everyone is not your friend. You have to be very careful who you tell your business to. If you were private and discreet as you say, what happened at the M&G would never have happened. In your case, the best thing to do is kill the haters with silence, learn and grow.

Katie, If you are a sex addict, you should seek help. While I am sure your clients may love you for it , it is still a problem that a lot of people are suffering from without knowing it. I admire you for being able to see that you have a problem. I admire you for being able to come out and tell the world what you are really going through but fact of the matter is, A LOT of guys  (especially the ones that you've never met) do not want to read that. You will only come off as a "nut job" to them.

I hope that you do get help. Do not allow people to make a fool out of you. I wish you a speedy recovery and the very best. Please if you ever need anything, just shoot an email.

XOXO,
Zarah

you need some therapy, and a meeting or 3 or 4.

posting your bs here is somewhat out of line. this is a board about p4p fun. Not a self help addiction board.
there are so many things wrong with displaying your life on these boards.Its clearly a cry for help and if you want it theres help out there. This is not it.

Go to a meeting...it will do you some good.

Maybe it was the 420 and the 12 step program, or you simply can't keep track of your fabrications.

Your last drama fest went to the second page and low and behold you posted to get back on the first page as soon as you could.

So 49 hobbyists contacted you to offer shills? I don't believe that for a second. I call BS. Send their info to TER? You are the laughing stock of Boston right now. Don't you get that? You want to tell others to get their shit together? Wow. I mean Wow.

You have the 2011 Drama Queen award wrapped up just from being here a few months. Congrats on that!    

I for one would never see (a) a provider who spends so much time whining and venting on a public board and (b) an admitted drunk.

Get some help and learn how to manage your life privately, not on a public forum.

Best of luck to you.

I was attacked a lot this week. It hurt. Damn, it hurt. And I've received 37 emails and 12 voicemails offering to shill for a freebie. FYI you men are worthless pieces of crap. I'll never see you. I should send your info to TER but I've decided to let you go. Maybe you'll get your shit together....


I'm 24 and I'm an alcoholic. It all started with binge drinking as a college cheerleader. Then on my first US Army deployment, it escalated....  Anyhow, I'm discrete. I'm private. I would rather die before I out a hobbyist. It'd be as bad for you as it'd be for me.

I'm not a BBW. I'm a fit muscular 175#. I was always the base in cheerleading (which is a sport).

But... This is a post asking for hobbyists that are recovering. Do you think sex addiction and alcohol addiction are linked?

Kisses and I love you all,
KK

Yes , Im drank a lot in High School til Feb of my senior year.  That is when caught a bad cold that went to mon no then hepitias of the lever.    That end drink for the rest of life.   But 10 years ago I began hobbying a bit.  now I am enticed a nice looking girl very easily.    A bad habit always takes you further then you want to go;  keeps you longer then you want to stay; and cost you more then you wanted to Pay.  Good luck  Steve

Dear Katie, Read your post and I don't know where to begin.  Since you seem to be reaching out, I will give my honest advice.  I am really sorry to hear about your bad week.  While the majority of people you meet in this hobby are basically good people just out for a little fun, there are more than a few bad apples out there.  Remember, you chose this business (big assumption) and you are in a business where you can and will probably meet a bunch of "bad", inconsiderate people.  Also, it sounds like you could use more help than "we", this community, can offer on a hobbyist forum.  I hope you reach out for some good, professional help.

Well said Zarah,
Katie, my p town chick, just stop it, call me if you need a friend but this is getting ugly now. We all support you with the best of intensions but you are getting to be "out there" These personal issues are starting to shadow the good person you may really be. I want to give you the best but you are making it hard love. My personal motto is kick ass and take names, fuckum and feed um beens but at this point honey, you should start to care what people think. Call a provider if you need to talk, reach out to others but this is not the place. Be safe, keep up the good work

Lov, Joi

Posted By: ZarahAdams

Katie,

Take it from someone that has been in the business longer than you have. I am also two years younger than you and I will tell you now that posting all your troubles on your blog is not attractive. Believe it or not, most men come to us to get away from the drama they have at home, work.. etc. They really don't want to hear us bitch and moan constantly. It is not their fault that you are going through what you are going through. You had this problem prior to entering this hobby and IMHO you probably shouldn't have gotten in this business at this point in your life. Katie, Most guys ... really just want a great conversation......and a great fuck. I am 22 years old and I learned early on that there are both good and bad people in this hobby. Everyone is not your friend. You have to be very careful who you tell your business to. If you were private and discreet as you say, what happened at the M&G would never have happened. In your case, the best thing to do is kill the haters with silence, learn and grow.

Katie, If you are a sex addict, you should seek help. While I am sure your clients may love you for it , it is still a problem that a lot of people are suffering from without knowing it. I admire you for being able to see that you have a problem. I admire you for being able to come out and tell the world what you are really going through but fact of the matter is, A LOT of guys  (especially the ones that you've never met) do not want to read that. You will only come off as a "nut job" to them.

I hope that you do get help. Do not allow people to make a fool out of you. I wish you a speedy recovery and the very best. Please if you ever need anything, just shoot an email.

XOXO,
Zarah

Katie, first of all I will congratulate you on admitting you have a problem with alcohol and trying to do the right thing.  But don't put the cart before the horse.  I suggest 90 meetings in 90 days, and when you go there sit down and shut up.  Maybe if you are lucky you will hear something.  As for posting on the boards well. I believe the AA slogan says to practice these priniples in all of your affairs.  Which basically means if you do nothing but post a schedule, you might be better off.  This is just a suggestion from a provider that stopped drinking when she was 20, and has been around here long enough to see many providers crash and burn due to poor posting choices.  As for making amends, it is best to work on you and your issues right now.  There will be plenty of time to make amends later, and as time passes, and people see a change, they may be more gracious to accept them.  
    Though I am not a hobbyist I believe there is a direct correlation between alcholism and sex addiction.  Its called substitution. A drug is a drug is a drug whether you get you jollies from a fifth of vodka or a eightball of coke or from swalling a nice load of cum.  Does that mean you have to give up sex?  Not at all just be aware that you are substituting sex, for another addiction.  I truly hope that you get what you need for your own sake.  My final suggestion to you if you havent already, get a sponser, and keep your private matters off the public boards.

It will get better.
KISS(keep it simple stupid)
crystal

I've had plenty of experience with addiction.  It's very common for multiple addictions to go together such as alcohol and sex.  There are a number of treatment options such as 12 step meetings like AA or SLAA (Sex and Love Addicts Anonymous).  Additionally there are some specialized outpatient treatment centers for sex addiction in New England.
Practice self compassion and make some steps to restore sanity in your life.

Progress not perfection!

"Serotonin is the feel good chemical in your brain. It modulates mood, emotion, sleep and appetite. A decrease in serotonin can lead to depression."
If you are fighting with depression, then you will crave the constant serotonin releases that make you relax, feel happy and balanced in your life. Serotonin is released by several methods: Sex and orgasm, alcohol, excercise, chocolate, perfumes. As someone else said, it is common to substitute. You are basically obtaining the Serotonin chemical from various extreme sources. My suggestion is to research more on nutritious eating habits. It seems you are partaking in the other methods mentioned, as you said you excercise, have sex, drink alcohol. My guess is you also wear alot of perfume and eat chocolate. Correct? The brain is a complicated, yet simple machine. If a person is not creating enough serotonin, the brain will send out strong extreme cravings to get it from an outside source. If you want to sort out your Serotonin levels in a healthy way, then you should read up on getting the sarotonin levels balanced through nutritious foods and excercise.

interesting post flora thanks for that.

I've been blasted on TER as well.  People on here need to learn a little diplomacy and respecting others!  I'll never post on here again!