Yes , Im drank a lot in High School til Feb of my senior year.  That is when caught a bad cold that went to mon no then hepitias of the lever.    That end drink for the rest of life.   But 10 years ago I began hobbying a bit.  now I am enticed a nice looking girl very easily.    A bad habit always takes you further then you want to go;  keeps you longer then you want to stay; and cost you more then you wanted to Pay.  Good luck  Steve

Dear Katie, Read your post and I don't know where to begin.  Since you seem to be reaching out, I will give my honest advice.  I am really sorry to hear about your bad week.  While the majority of people you meet in this hobby are basically good people just out for a little fun, there are more than a few bad apples out there.  Remember, you chose this business (big assumption) and you are in a business where you can and will probably meet a bunch of "bad", inconsiderate people.  Also, it sounds like you could use more help than "we", this community, can offer on a hobbyist forum.  I hope you reach out for some good, professional help.

Katie,

Take it from someone that has been in the business longer than you have. I am also two years younger than you and I will tell you now that posting all your troubles on your blog is not attractive. Believe it or not, most men come to us to get away from the drama they have at home, work.. etc. They really don't want to hear us bitch and moan constantly. It is not their fault that you are going through what you are going through. You had this problem prior to entering this hobby and IMHO you probably shouldn't have gotten in this business at this point in your life. Katie, Most guys ... really just want a great conversation......and a great fuck. I am 22 years old and I learned early on that there are both good and bad people in this hobby. Everyone is not your friend. You have to be very careful who you tell your business to. If you were private and discreet as you say, what happened at the M&G would never have happened. In your case, the best thing to do is kill the haters with silence, learn and grow.

Katie, If you are a sex addict, you should seek help. While I am sure your clients may love you for it , it is still a problem that a lot of people are suffering from without knowing it. I admire you for being able to see that you have a problem. I admire you for being able to come out and tell the world what you are really going through but fact of the matter is, A LOT of guys  (especially the ones that you've never met) do not want to read that. You will only come off as a "nut job" to them.

I hope that you do get help. Do not allow people to make a fool out of you. I wish you a speedy recovery and the very best. Please if you ever need anything, just shoot an email.

XOXO,
Zarah

you need some therapy, and a meeting or 3 or 4.

posting your bs here is somewhat out of line. this is a board about p4p fun. Not a self help addiction board.
there are so many things wrong with displaying your life on these boards.Its clearly a cry for help and if you want it theres help out there. This is not it.

Go to a meeting...it will do you some good.

You got 4 years younger since last week..

Maybe it was the 420 and the 12 step program, or you simply can't keep track of your fabrications.

Your last drama fest went to the second page and low and behold you posted to get back on the first page as soon as you could.

So 49 hobbyists contacted you to offer shills? I don't believe that for a second. I call BS. Send their info to TER? You are the laughing stock of Boston right now. Don't you get that? You want to tell others to get their shit together? Wow. I mean Wow.

You have the 2011 Drama Queen award wrapped up just from being here a few months. Congrats on that!    

I for one would never see (a) a provider who spends so much time whining and venting on a public board and (b) an admitted drunk.

Get some help and learn how to manage your life privately, not on a public forum.

Best of luck to you.

I've had plenty of experience with addiction.  It's very common for multiple addictions to go together such as alcohol and sex.  There are a number of treatment options such as 12 step meetings like AA or SLAA (Sex and Love Addicts Anonymous).  Additionally there are some specialized outpatient treatment centers for sex addiction in New England.
Practice self compassion and make some steps to restore sanity in your life.

Progress not perfection!

"Serotonin is the feel good chemical in your brain. It modulates mood, emotion, sleep and appetite. A decrease in serotonin can lead to depression."
If you are fighting with depression, then you will crave the constant serotonin releases that make you relax, feel happy and balanced in your life. Serotonin is released by several methods: Sex and orgasm, alcohol, excercise, chocolate, perfumes. As someone else said, it is common to substitute. You are basically obtaining the Serotonin chemical from various extreme sources. My suggestion is to research more on nutritious eating habits. It seems you are partaking in the other methods mentioned, as you said you excercise, have sex, drink alcohol. My guess is you also wear alot of perfume and eat chocolate. Correct? The brain is a complicated, yet simple machine. If a person is not creating enough serotonin, the brain will send out strong extreme cravings to get it from an outside source. If you want to sort out your Serotonin levels in a healthy way, then you should read up on getting the sarotonin levels balanced through nutritious foods and excercise.