With my last post I thought I was through here. Let me add this one more. To update my unhappy ending for those that noticed my previous post. I received a couple of PM's that understood and one lady offered advice which was just what I wanted to do. I got my head together and went back to see the young lady. We talked and I explained and surprisingly she understood perfectly and we went from there.

GFE?? A post sometime ago discussed this in detail about what to expect. To me its connection not specific services. Some of the services some of the guys look for, this young lady didn't offer. I don't know if that's changed, but I don't think so. I can't verify that because she's asked me not to read them, so I don't. I can't update my review because there's no service upgrade for me. If I could I would change looks to 8 or 9 because she gets more beautiful every time I see her and I've seen her a few. On performance I'd change it to 'forgot it was a service'. Why? Two reasons, they don't offer 'last in a lifetime', and because when I'm there we don't act like its a service. We talk, laugh, dance, we snack, drink and exercise???, she wanted to learn and its something I know a lot about. As far as intimacies go there is now passion. In our last time together I can truly say no one has ever held me and said the things she said nor have I said those things to another in or out of the hobby. The passion was so great I would NOT finish it. I didn't want it to end. I finally stopped because I was sweating profusely and she was glowing more than a lady should. Time was up and I dress and left but as I was leaving she let me know she enjoyed our time together and at the door a few more kisses and a few 'sweet nothings' I don't dare repeat. So this is the GFE I've long for.  

Now the unhappy ending is I can't afford to see her every day

and figured out who this was and made a date D--N you, she's booked for the week (insert expletive here) on the other hand its good for her, as much as I hate it. This is the first time after four previous successful visits.

Is it possible that you two should be talking about going to the next lever with some sort of commitment ???
Some serious thought here.  Neither of you would be the first or the last to do this.  Best wishes and
good luck.   fpg

For many reasons, that's not possible. The difference in our ages and I no longer work. If I were younger and working I would do my best to make that happen. She has seen a picture of me at her age and said I was very nice looking, but age has changed that. I don't look my age, but I definitely don't look hers. She did give me an age to be when we're together.

Believe me I've never run into someone in my hobby career or out of it that was as sweet and who made me feel the way this young lady has. I have seen, early in my hobby, a couple of ladies repeatedly but that was over a long period of time. This lady I have spent 6 hours with brought small gifts of flowers, jewelry, wine, exercise equipment, perfume, a book, clothes etc. and all of that in less than a month and hopefully another visit next week.

Yes, I am dumbfounded, some might think stupid. If I had it to offer, and I am working on that, I would give her what she needed without commitment to me from her. She'll be leaving soon and to be perfectly honest after my last visit with her I don't know if I want to continue this hobby.

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you sound like a teenager with a first love but, whatever floats your boat.

 You might as well keep going and enjoy it because it's better than hoping to find what you want (with an escort) and not finding it.

Yes, sounds that way, feels that way. Sometimes I feel my age is playing tricks with my brain, I don't think so, for reason I won't explain. Wasn't really looking for this, it just happened. She is either a very good actress for one so young and inexperienced or we are connected. I fully intend to continue until she's gone. THEN????

that's easy.

 you found her right? might take a while but find another one.

Her time here grows short. My time on the earth grows shorter everyday. Why deny myself one of life's pleasures? I found someone that has really put some joy in my life. Is it real? Only to me. I'm happy in the time we're together and the thoughts that linger in between our meetings.

If she doesn't mind why should you?

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