Ditto for what Nova22 said. Before I clicked on your review history I had a feeling what I would find. I'm trying to be helpful - it looks like there is something not clicking for you about this hobby thing and you are risking a bunch of unpleasant experiences. Most of the real ladies that you can hook up with look like real ladies. They do not have the appearance of porn or pin-ups out of glossy magazine. Some are hot as hell. Some are just real. The main thing is to find a body type and personality that suits your taste.

A good way to start might be to check out the reviews and find a few reliable local ladies that you find appealing. Look for someone with pages and pages of reviews. That will begin to give a sense of what this hobby is about when it is safely pursued. I don't know where you are located but Rebecca with Desirable might be one of those picks. I can't imagine anyone not having a good time with her and she will make you feel like the world's greatest stud. Stay away from BP or Eros until you've got a better spidey-sense.

Good luck.