-- Modified on 8/8/2011 8:13:45 PM

This past Friday I was suppose to see my ATF Porn Star Provider, for a one hour session for $800.00 (trust me she's worth every penny), however something came up on her part, & she had to cancel all of her appointments for Friday & Saturday.

Having this $800.00 rolled up in my pocket, feeling dissapointed I couldn't see my ATFPSP I didn't know what to do. Seeing another provider was out of the question.

So I just sat on my couch watching my 26 inch screen TV, and thought popped into my head. At X-Mart they have a sell for 42 inch flat screen TVs, and nice entertainment system for all just under 750.00.

Well my ATFPSP sent me a text letting me know she's in the area, but I can't go see her. because I'm blogging on here, and watching the 42 inch flat screen TV sitting on the nice entertainment system for just under 750.00

A chick-flick? A suspense? You know her. What gets her off besides you?

Fuck, she might be impressed with the choice you made, considering the circumstances. Make a nice dinner for her and before you know it you'd be hooking up the video-cam and makin' a porn of your own...

It can happen!  

I'll admit I've got the opposite problem from a lot of guys in this hobby.  I'm more of a "things" rather than "experiences" kind of guy.  I like the luxury of a vacation, massage or GFE, but if I have other things I want to buy, I just can't bring myself to spend the money on a 60 minute bit of pleasure versus something permanent that I'll enjoy for a long time.

Part of the problem is I've got way too many expensive hobbies.  For example, I just calculated tonight that the audio system I've assembled over the past two years retails for $31,000.  Even I was surprised.

Whereas a lot of guys on this board probably have the opposite problem, for me, it's always a struggle to justify the tradeoffs with the other things I want.  And frankly, it often makes it difficult for me to enjoy the experience when I do decide to see someone because I feel conflicted about the other things I'd like to use the money for.

And it's not even a function of income.  When I made more money, I was just spending it on bigger and more expensive things.  So I guess it's just a personality trait that's unrelated to income.

...happy or sad about this decision?

And think about this... for the cost of a typical 1-hr appt, you can buy a new laptop.

Because I recently spilled vodka on mine and now it won't start.  And it was Polish vodka!

I know that makes me the exception around here, but I've never had sex as good as 4 or 5 of my GFs.  Hell, even my ex-wife for the first 3 or 4 years was an animal in bed.  

An hour session with a provider, frankly, leaves me feeling empty as often as not.  I think it's simply a matter of reference frame.  Even if providers are attractive and eager, in my prime I had some rockin' girlfriends that were in love with me and fucked like it- something providers are not.

Of course, I'm no longer in my prime so I happy that anybody will fuck me now.  

Yeah, hobbying is one expense afterhour treat. I use to drive luxurious cars, and maintaining them cost major dough. Now, I am force to drive around in an economic car. I figured, well, if I spent $1600 a month on hobbying, then its time to make some sacrafices. That's $19,200 a year!! That money could go towards anything!!

..I'll still be vividly remembering my experiences with some of these gals.. Which ain't goin nowhere till I start to seriously do some geezin'.  Absolutely friggin priceless.!!   ---SHM..

PS- To each his own, tho'..

I recently found a provider that ran me 1k/visit. So that's where my discretionary spending went. But lately, maybe it's a low T. problem or a mid-life crisis, but I decided to put that $ into a custom motorcycle. So I've curbed my hobbying for now and spend my free time cruising with my chop.

so now I hire providers