So I met a provider early this summer.. When I first seen her ad, I wasnt nothing different, just called her up, or emailed(cant remember actually).. Told her what I was in to as far as fantasy, set up a meet.. Met her in public, she was cute etc. etc.   Had a great time... Month later, set up a doubles with her.. but when I met her this time I was fucking mesmorized(sp)... the whole time of my doubles session I found that I could give a fuck less about the other girl she brought with as I was soley focused on her... Awesome time!!  Should have told the other girl to leave    Month Later met her again, absolutley awesome!  She was in college, all of a sudden she dropped off the radar.. didnt hear nothing.. So now I was sad, I sent a few emails, I finally accepted she was done and she was by far my ATF!!  Noticed she took her webpage down and her twitter feed down.. that was probably in August!    
   
 4 days ago she emails me out of the blue, says she is back but not advertising.. which I assume means UTR?? I have never seen a girl UTR!    Now Im paranoid, should I go back as now I was finally starting to forget about her..   But I want to go back.. but the huge problem is I can not remember for the life of me what her donation was or if she Has raised them or lowered them or open her menu up... All I do remember was she was at a higher donation then I would generally pay for the things she offered, but I was so mesmorized by her that I didnt give a shit..  Example is CBJ which is usually a huge turn off...  
   
 So in a nutshell how do you return to see your ATF when she has returned but is UTR?  Should I be conserned that she took all her ads down.. I have no idea.. Im sure someone here has dealt with this..  
   
 The trolls can ridicule all you want.. wont bother me,      Am I in love with her.. prob not as she is 12 years younger than me..  
 Am I fascinated by her... Absolutley!!!!  
 Am I attracted.. DuH  No brainer..  
 AM I confused.. Yes Much!