Over the last two years I have tried to meet a particular provider but the timing did not work out. My only opportunities to see her is when I travel. Now after 2 years and many failed attempts it looks like we may actually make the connection. In that time she has gone way UTR and does not provide on a regular basis. But I am feeling funny about it.. We have kept in touch and exchanged a few emails now and then and perhaps formed a tiny connection but the butterflies are here. Now all those first anxieties, performance issues, what to say, what will she think are all swirling in my mind.

I enjoy the beautiful young women I meet in the hobby and have never felt like this, but this lady is way 10+ both inside and out. Perhaps the fantasy is just screwing in my mind. I am old enough to know this is only infatuation but who would have thought after all this time? Crazy to have found it in the hobby.




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If she is that far UTR she has decided to be very choosy as well.  Something about you struck her fancy as well.  Just because these meetings are temporary doesn't mean there isn't some actual connection at some level.

Nothing wrong with feeling butterflies no matter how long you've been at this, especially when the wait has been this long.

Hope it goes even better than you expect.

Totally agree. I went through this.

Use them to get that adreneline rush and have a great time. The couple of days before I see a new PSE or UTR are great for me.

There's a real danger that she'll make you cum in 3 minutes.  So practice jackin yourself and see if you could last 30 minutes without ejaculating.

It will be bad if you have a premature ejaculation due to the tense anticipation.

So make sure you jack off 2 days before seeing her.

enjoy every second,this feeling is what its all about, i was lucky enough to find a provider last year that gave me all those feelings, she had me going crazy and i loved it.its a fantasy i asure you but what the hell im going to say no.it was absolutely heaven.

I just wish I practiced what you preached. I've let several lovely ladies 'get in my head' prior to meeting them & have been a stuttering, mumbling, drooling, awkward idiot when we meet.

Well, maybe that's not so different from my usual behavior ...