Do you have a sexual desire that you’re also uncertain about?  

 
For me, it’s participating in a Gang Bang. The sexual carnage of it intrigues me. I’m not sure how I feel about sharing with that many men though. I have done threesomes with another man. Each time, I enjoyed it and felt overly stimulated at the same time. An hour has never been enough. Even though I fucked and got sucked the whole time, I didn’t finish and could have gone another 30 minutes to an hour.  

 
Sharing with that many more men, I only image my time getting sucked or fucking would be even more limited. I would need to spend more time jerking myself and watching than a one-on-one or threesome. Many men want their turns! And yet, it still intrigues me.

I my case it was - what am I doing with session after session of BDSM / KINK ? Saw more than one Dom who did not do sex and one that did. Tried most everything from bondage, toys for boys, sounds , temp piercings, and most every other thing on their card.  
Never sure an enjoyed it but kept going back but think I found some women that knew more about me then I did .

Wish I had worries and uncertainties like that...

Oh my! I want to take one of these swingers cruises SO badly! But I’m a chicken… 🐔

I went on my first one last November.  It was AWESOME!!!

I know you don’t have to do anything you don’t wanna do. But I’m afraid that when I get ready to perform, I won’t be able to perform . And I’m just chicken 🐔

I say just go for it. Youve already fucked a dude. Youve already fucked a ts. Its not like there is anything in this scenario you havent encountered.  

ED wont likely be a factor.

I feel this is similar to a Gang Bang. I know it’s really not. But I can’t help but think will others want in? Will they watch? Maybe masterbate while I’m having fun? Will I be rejected? Will I be approached by someone I’m not attracted to? Once I cum, being a one shot guy, what to do?

I really want to be WATCHED in person, especially outside. I don't necessarily want to participate with everyone. I want to be girl on girl and drive everyone crazy. That's what gets me off.... I probably wont fuck any dudes. But I'll let anyone watch me and do whatever they want.

I hear you about overstimulation. For me, easy lighting, choice music and a classy atmosphere do a lot to soften my nerves. I also like to start the event in black tie or close to it; I think a tuxedo on a man is dashing and arouses me even before the clothes come off.  

Not to hijack your post, but I have two gangbangs coming up that you’re welcome to attend, as long as there is still space. May 18th and July 13th. Both in SF.

Since I am a connoisseur of cunnilingus, I guess the next step would be Throat Goat