Don't kid yourself, there's nothing "fascinating" about being a sex-mule, just think if the tables were turned and you had to crank out 4 or 5 nuts per day in unattractive chatter-box women who were out of shape and past their prime for cash? Does that sound "glamorous"?? That's hell on earth!
 And don't further kid yourself about her crock of shit about smuggling "emeralds" in her snatch either... She was probably stuffing her gash with compresses heroine pellets and smuggling them into this country...  

If it was as many years ago as you indicate, I imagine she's dead by now...

-- Modified on 12/19/2008 9:51:52 PM

I don't care what you do for a living we all go thru periods of burnout, from CEO's all the way down the ladder. Most of the time we bounce back but some don't. Stress is hard on the body, mind and soul so a little diverson helps even if it means smuggleing emeralds into the country. When I get burn't out I go hobbying.

Provider Burnout?? My God. Without a doubt. FOR SOME not all!  Girls that see a multitude of clients daily are on a sure road to burnout and for some girls unfortunatly  doing this have NO choice for many reasons we're not getting into now.  I'm low volume mainly because I have a real life career and do this a few times a month for fun and extra spending money  My focus is quality as opposed to quanity.  You gentlemen MUST understand that doing this Providing thing does take a piece of all of us. Some a smaller piece then others
Quanity = Burnout.  Plain and simple!  Just go and read some of the reviews of Busy Well Known Providers doing this awhile with page after page of reviews, you'll see that although most are stellar there comes a few where a hobbyist feel that the woman is mechanical and just going thru the motions  Quanity = Burnout
My opinion only
Jay

You can practically SEE when providers burnout if you read all of their reviews and note the trends (it would take someone about 15 minutes to ascertain my two burnout periods in my body of reviews); you can also see when they have recouped their waning interest and are excited about providing again.

You put your g-string and garters in a suitcase and live out of hotels for a few months, playing cat & mouse with LE, being targeted by unscrupulous providers, having your identity compromised by stalkers and sorting out the needs of clients (most of whom are seeing us for every other reason BUT NSA sex).
You experience overweight, unattractive, unappealing and unskilled people utilizing your service and then critically referring to YOU as unattractive or dull for hundreds of thousands of people to see (despite your obvious best efforts and kindness towards them) for a little while and see how it weighs on you.

It is a business like any other-
And like other professionals our "career" is tiring, grating and redundant after years on end.
Unlike other professionals however, this is something that you don't leave the office to escape.  It's permanently ingrained in your head and written upon your character.

Once you've become an escort, the realities of men, love, lust, marriage/partnership are laid bare- and it is nothing like the fairytales.

Smart providers who feel themselves burning out mentally and physically take substantial amounts of time off.

Someone once said to me:  "Ally you'll never survive this business because it is a business of exploitation and you're too smart, too aware- its going to drive you mad"

I'm like a sponge- I soak up the criticism that I read here and on other boards, the neurosis of some of my clients and other undesirable/complicated elements of the business.
I have an unfortunate habit of internalizing it, taking it personal and over thinking it.

When I feel the cynicism creeping in and as though I can't relate to my clients or give them the person that I was when I entered the business I stop providing for a time and allow myself to RESET:
Never forgetting what I have learned for practical reference and use, I am unavailable until I am physically wanting and mentally able to turn my brain off.

Having spent time with many providers in a short amount of time I think that the providers who are less-inclined to burnout are those who are in it for no other reason than the money.
I think that they are the ONLY providers who are able to completely forgo personal evaluation in favor of their favorite drug, body & mind numbing cash spending.

I think that "good" providers fall into two categories:

a) New Entries (less than 1 year in the business, fresh and happy)-voluntary entries only, not victims of circumstance or those who provide as a means to an end (new car, tuition, medical bills etc)

b) Those who are aware of their propensity for burnout.  They recognize that they can only experience X amount of volume, can only tour for so many weeks, they can only glance at the boards ever so often, etc. and they modify their habits accordingly taking time off when necessary.

-- Modified on 12/20/2008 6:03:52 AM

The OP shared a personal story, and asked a sincere question. I do not recognize his handle so he may be new. I was quite confused when Ben Dover's post did not match the tenor of the OP's, and concerned that such responses could very well discourage someone, new the the boards, from asking questions that reflect any personal vulnerability or sincere inquiry. I'm glad that some of the ladies have given him responses more in line with what he was seeking.

I assume you asked this question because
- you cared for her in your own way
- wonder what happened to her
- maybe nostalgic because Xmas is just round the corner.

I have posted my answer via a separate post. I am sorry the board attacked you.