Another attempt at erotic writing....

I believe I can love more than one man at a time. That's not a theory. I always do. That's why I don't want to get married and why I prefer my affairs with men who already are. They are in no position to demand monogamy from me.

It may sound freaky coming from me, but while I enjoy going to bed with some guy I like almost any time.. I especially like it if there's something in the air that let's me think I'm doing this against my will. That I am being forced by the man's overwhelming physical strength. Something like that!!

The doctor's call this kind of thing a rape fantasy, but that's as far as I want it to go. On the fantasy level, not the real thing. I don't go out by myself on dark nights, and if any horny stud threatened me, even with a gun, I'd scream my head off. All this dosen't sound like me, but you might say that the person I am today is totally not the girl that my mother tried to make.

I like the look of a man....all of him. But when I get to a certain point, when I really become excited, I just close my eyes. That way, I can feel everything. I can also be back there in the dark, with my own thoughts. Many, many times I have masked myself and others. In fact, having something over my eyes gave me THIS fantasy!

I imagined I was brought to a warehouse. Against my will. I am stripped naked and the only thing I am allowed to wear is a black silk mask. This is because whatever powerful person brought me here does not want the men ..yes there are more than one in this fantasy---to know who I am. I never know who he is, and he himself never fuks me. I just know that he is somewhere in the background, enjoying the feeling of power he has, not only over me, but over the men, too. The men are so hot with desire for me that they can barely control themselves. But he can take me away from them whenever he wants to. In my mind I can imagine the men, all big and powerfully built. They're naked, too, while they wait their turn with me. I think of them watching each other as each of them performs, talking about various techniques, and what they are going to do when their turn comes with me.

Meanwhile, the guy who is really with me, every time he tries a different position, or a different idea, I pretend to myself that it's the next man in line. So it's always exciting this way, because I seemingly have an endless supply of men fuking me. . . but they never know who I am. Even if I met one of them on the street the next day, or had lunch with him, he wouldn't know.

Me, naked on this bed with just this little black mask on my face, and these five or six naked men all waiting their turn to fuk me.


Sexy Carolina

SC,
You might think this is strange (and timely) but I had that very same dream last night but it was my 3 business partners and me, using my ATF. Just like your message she was blindfolded and we used her for 6 hours or more.... getting hard just remembering this one.

I wonder if there's any providers that might enjoy such a treat??

And to answer your question...It is my fantasy!!

XOXO

Sexy Carolina

I have always suspected that this is a common fantasy for many women, but most don't have the courage to admit to it! God knows the fantasy has always turned me on but you are right, the fantasy is exciting, not the real thing.

I know that some will misinterpret what is essentially an observation I've made on this topic...

Before I do....Sexy and Sins, I know you are talking fantasy and I acknowledge that and the fact that actual rape is beyond terrible.

With that being said here's what I have observed:

It seems that if a woman has the rape fantasy and it is clearly fantasy that is distinctly separate from the horrible reality, then such fantasy seems acceptable to many as a naughty, erotic catalyst to consensual sex.

If a male has the rape fantasy and it is clearly fantasy that is distinctly separate from the horrible reality, then such fantasy seems to be unacceptable to many and the guy is viewed as being a sicko.        

In all honesty I do not and have never had such fantasy.  It just that from my own observations on this topic, and I've seen it discussed many times, when a woman has the fantasy it is thought of as normal.  When a guy has it he seems to be often tagged as being a deviant.
   

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JW,
Whoa, hold your horses, rape fantasy????
No way!
I think Sexy's message describes, a knowing and willing participant. NOT, someone who's tied up or being controled by others, against her will. All she mentioned was a blindfold!
My take....

I had to do a little research once for a paper; the thesis involved several Supreme Court findings. This was NOT a thesis on Fantasy but on Cruel and Unusual Punishment and RAPE. Knowing that most RAPE involves a woman as the victim I can certainly accept and understand the point you made. When it comes to FANTASY I would HOPE that in OUR community we are able to keep our EYES WIDE OPEN!

Even..under a "black silk mask."

XOXO

Sexy Carolina

'The doctor's call this kind of thing a rape fantasy, but that's as far as I want it to go. On the fantasy level, not the real thing.'

And...

'I imagined I was brought to a warehouse. Against my will.'


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And a disclaimer it was...When we consider this FANTASY we might say that "being taken against one's will" would be rape. When I decide to share a fantasy...it is with WILLING participants. Please don't confuse the issue here. Fantasy is in the mind. We walk around with it. HOW we act out OUR fantasies is clear for all to see..and then again it is not!! There are many deviants in life. I am NOT looking to meet ANY of them. I want to share with an open mind the fantasies of an erotic woman.

Sexy Carolina

Thanks for taking the time to catch my drift.  I've read previous postings of yours that dealt with your fondness for writing erotic stories.  As such I knew and appreciated the angle you were coming from.  But as good writers often do, they cause the reader to walk away thinking.  Your post today made me think of my observations on how I see others reacting to the rape fantasy.  Nothing more, nothing less.  Again I am glad you understood my thought...    

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JW,
Agreed, sorry to jump so soon! (But I was polite
It's all good, we're on the same page.
AM

I read some of your reviews and I know you act out part of your fantasy, with the blindfolds and such.

Let me tell you...acting a rape fantasy is NOT FUN AT ALL.

Don't try it, EVER!!!

My boyfriend is one of these people (like you) who is always testing his boundaries.

His fantasies started with multiple girls, then went to swinging, then to multiple couples, then to interracial couples, then to interracial GBs...then to plain and simple rape.

Guys who have the rape fantasy are the ones you don't want to mess up with, because when they are acting out their fantasies, well, you are under their PHYSICAL will.

Rape, even in a fantasy act, is not about wearing a black silk mask and wait for guys to use you and  take turns...that is a gangbang! Done that many times!

Fantasy rape means get yourself dragged on the floor by the hair, violently handled and trowed in different positions like a rag doll, pinned down by one or three guys that can bench press 400 lbs in a gym...be at their mercy, without ways to stop what is going on....more you cry, scream and beg them to stop, more violent they get because that is exactly what feeds their rage.

Once, I tried to please my man and give him his rape fantasy...NEVER AGAIN!

Is not worth the physical and emotional pain you will have after is over...is not worth to do it not even once to please the man you love because the guy in there is NOT the one you know.

Took me days to recoup from the physical damage...and months to get my emotions back on track.

I did with my man and it was the most horrific experience in my life...I cannot even imagine what would happen if it was done with complete strangers - the way YOU fantasize.

Sex is the most delightful and pleasurable thing we do...fantasies are healthy, but once it involves that much pain, well, is truly damaging.

BDG

A very disturbing and poignant description of your experience and a helpful warning to those who might want to try this.  From this perspective I find it admirable of you to
share this with others beacuse it must be hard for you to talk about it...

With that being said, I have a question for you if I may...

When you agreed to your boyfriend's request to act out his rape fantasy did you agree upon a designated 'Safe' word beforehand that could be used to cease all activity if you felt uncomfortable?

If you did not do this then perhaps that should be part of the lesson learned for those who are about to enter a darker side of fantasy.

If you did establish a 'safe' word and you used it and it was ignored, then IMHO BDG, you were raped.  



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Fantasies...I guess every one of us have them.

Some are harmless and involve just a bit of physical force and people who have them play with safety rules and words.

But, certain fantasies cross the safety borders and turn into dangerous acts.

I think a person who has a mind populated by sexual fantasies can go in two directions...acting them in a safe way and respecting limitations....or go all the way, acting them with such realism where pushing the limits and going further and further is what satisfy their urges.

My boyfriend fits the last description, he is a guy who is always pushing limits, no matter if is in his  professional or personal life.

He is highly competitive in all aspects and he's always trying to be the very best, above everyone else.

Our relationship is so intricated...I am always the center of his sexual fantasies and I know how to manipulate them to satisfy his urges.

I thought I could control the rape situation...and I thought once he saw the other guys (equally powerful like him) taking over his female he would make them stop, showing his power over them and be in charge.

But, it didn't happen that way...he was so enthralled by the sense of reality of what was happening, he turned into one of them and it was like being attacked by a pack of wolves.

Some fantasies, specially involving physical power like this, have a drugging effect over the participants...they are soo deep into it, they don't remember it is just an act and things tend to get out of control.

Yes, it was rape....of course it was. Even if we had decided on safety words I KNEW once he was in his trance it would be difficult for me to snap him out...I took my chances, it was a gambling from my side...but I did it because I wanted him to have his fantasy with ME and not harm someone else.

BUT, when I do "act" out any of my fantasies I assure you they are with respect and consent and the gentlemen are of like-mind.

I think it is important to UNDERSTAND this is an erotic writing. If and when I "act" out my fantasies and I feel like sharing them I do say I did this!!!
I welcome the stimulating mind and the offers of opinion. I do believe if one were to "Act" out any fantasy that is "taboo"/dark that involves "overpowering" there should be FIRM guidlines discussed. Because of the nature of the business I participate in I hope to think people are able to connect in ways that are mutually sensual and erotic. The edges are there to explore.

xoxo

Sexy Carolina

In my "story" she is gang-banged...perhaps the fact she is "there" blindfolded under the will of the "man" to her seems like rape. What she finds when she closes her eyes when she is with "her man" are these other guys. It is her fantasy that most likely keeps her current sex heightened. The fantasy is the fantasy! We all have it and use it as we close our eyes. My fantasies began with masterbation when I was very young. I have acted out those!! My fav was "The Masseuse"

Thanks for sharing with us all. What you did was risky and sharing the outcome with us was very honest.

XOXO

Sexy Carolina

this woman has helps her to share with her man. I can see this so easily happening in a long marriage, where sex is seldom and "Uneventful." She creates a "fantasy"..and when she is lying there with her eyes closed...she let's her mind take her. In her mind..her fantasy. Fantasy is erotic. Fantasy is the mind. The mind erotic is a good thing.

These conversations would be awesome in "real time"....

Thanks for reading!!

Sexy Carolina

READ "THE STORY OF O" A CLASSIC PIECE OF EROTIC LITERATURE

I am worried about some single guy coming to see sexy and printing these out for his legal protection.

If she writes like this, she needs to have a security guard or a special lock where she can retreat to a closet that has a secret passage and and the guy is locked into her apartment so someone can beat the shit out of him.

I LOVE that line! That really sums it up for me.

I had a customer wear a black hood, it was awesome.
I also had a couple of them put on Joey Jordison's mask for me, that was great too.
He's the drummer for slipknot you can see it on myspace-- don't know if I can post myspace on here so just go to my website and then click the link to myspace
thanks for the story Carolina
love Heather

I see some providers on a regular basis. I use handcuffs, ballgags, sometimes cloth gags, and blindfolds. It is never a issue of force with me. If the provider says no or she wants to take the restraints off I take them off. I have had a few providers tell me there pussy gets soaking wet when I use the toys on them.

One thing that is important is that you don't want to over do it. It can become and addiction. Sometimes it is important just to do the regular stuff.

that you consider writing an opera libretto along the lines of "Un ballo i mascera"(masqerade ball)where men & women are gathered in a ballroom all masked but otherwise totally nude,each taking turn singing an erotic aria....I'll betcha that this new genre of opera would succeed beyond  your wildest dreams!(and may even lead you to a career change....lol)

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Interesting comments wannarideher!!

Keep in mind these are writings, not actual experiences. So many fantasies never become reality. I can see my latest fantasy writing actually happening somewhere by someone.

Please don't worry about me..but thanks!!

From what you wrote in your post...IMHO..you have a talent for writing too! Perhaps a murder mystery?

Sexy Carolina

yes I agree, regular sex and some extra fun too.
But those are my naughty secrets, also I have seen guys who are into both giving and receiving, and it is fun to do. I stopped advertising BDSM since I really didn't get much response.
love Heather

Your writing is now there, and as such, if someone should take you up, and get you into a position which is dangerous, he can pull the comments and say, but this is what she prefers!  I had not thought of that, but it is a good point.