Ok, I've seen quite a number of providers over the years - some of them were great, and some were good.  Many of the great ones have retired comfortable and more power to them, and a some have retired to be with significant others (a number of them have unretired too).  I have always viewed it as them moving on and there have always been good people coming into the life so it balances out.  

However... there was this one that I really wanted to see and never got to see.  For some reason I haven't been able to put that to bed.  Not in a creepy way, mind you, just every once in a while I miss the possibility.  

Does anyone else have that?  Mine was a girl who called herself MyMichelle, from Phoenix.  She billed herself as Nordic and looked it, she also was very creative with her website.  She used to send me pics as a teaser, but I never could find a reason (other than her) to go to Phoenix.  Then, one day her site is gone and so is she.  Another provider told me "aw, hon, she has retired".  

I should be able to dismiss it, and I ought to, I know, but I still keep those pics for whatever reason.  Anyway, I guess the moral is: if you have a potential ATF, go see her, whatever the reason!

Tis better to have lusted, and lost

than never to have lusted at all.......

but, yeah - I've missed my chance with a couple of ladies who have disappeared as well -

Ah, what might have been.....

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I think I know the feeling.  I, too, have a particular provider in my area who I have been trying to see for almost two years now.  My interest began after I saw her pics and read her reviews-exactly what I have always wanted. I had tried unsuccessfly many times to communicate via email, and actually made intial contact with her, finally.  Then, poof, she wont return my call or email.  I see by her reviews that she is still working, and her website is still up.  Anyway, at this point I assume she must view my eager attempts to see her as some sort of warnings sign to avoid me.  My inital attraction to her, while obviously still there, no longer served as an impetus to see her.  I was just dumbfounded as to what I did wrong.  References were verified, I did everything right.  She just wouldnt talk to me.  Now, I wasnt emailing her like crazy, just every now and then.  When she finally responded (positively), I was excited. Finally!! Then nothing.  I have recently given up all hope and interest in her, but the situation just bugs me alot, and I dont know quite why. I know a provider has to rely on her instincts, but it just sucks that in this instance the provider's instincts were completely wrong.....