i do, and it saves me alot of money.

for some reason, my head clears once the jimmy spits.
sometimes, i get that while i'm with a provider too.

after i finish..i say to myself...."i paid x amount of money...for this?, i could've done this by myself!"

just a random thought, don't mind me.

jBugs

If I wouldn't invest in myself a couple times a week, I'd be one broke-ass MF.  As it is, I hobby at least once a week.  This beast downstairs in very hard to control!

I've the same problem...  once my head down there clears up, I promise myself to sin no more and be good from now on...  but when little johnny gets too clog up again, I find myself in the same shoe once again and looking up TER to dial the numbers for any providers who will answer...  it is a never ending self-battle... :P  *sigh*

same here.  this has to be a common cycle among us.  I mean, unless your filthy rich, there is a significant cost involved in this "hobby".  Not to mention that many of us may have significant others who are to some extent, cognizant of the finances... if too much goes unaccounted for, there is explaining to do.... regardless...no one feels happy about blowing large sums of money on something you don't really need, and end up with nothign to show for.  It's over too quick.  Unlike a vacation where you have "real" memories.  

when I clear my head, via self help, I too usually don't feel the need to seek out a provider.  I've also found that some providers give you a much better experience than others...so if you're going to a new one, there's always a chance that you'll be expecially disappointed because the quality of the service just isn't up to par... so it's not always worth the money.

there are some though that wow... it's just so fucking good.  it's got to be like drugs.  I dont' do them, so I don't know about that "world"...but there is a "high" involved in this hobby, and it can consume you if you let it....some of us are recreational, some are rare usuers, and some are most likely "addicts".  if you get to that point, wehre it is negatively affecting your life and you can't stop..that's not good.  Luckly, I've never got to that point.

although I think all of us have experienced some "buyer's remorse" or "guilty" feelings after being with a provider.

Lucky for me, and my bank account, I live in a city that doesn't have many providers. I have a lovely lady I visit once in a while in LV and another doll that visits here once a month. DSB (dreaded semem backup) can usually be handled by these intervals. What is nice is my right hand takes on either one of their personas when it doesn't.

Its normally an after the fact reaction for me, like "ok, that definitely wasn't worth the $$$

Fortunately for me, that's only happened a couple of times.  Most of my provider experiences have been very positive.

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