34...high or low, it is what it is.  That's the number of women I'd been with prior to the Hobby.  I've found a certain degree of irony to think back and  the first things I recall are their first names and what we did sexually.  I remember one gal being revenge sex, a one night stand to get back at a boyfriend.  Another, whom enjoyed giving me bbbjcim's (...gotta like these hobby acronym's) while I was driving.  Looking back, she probably hated it, but you do what you do to get at someone.  The commonalities being, no relationship lasting more than 18 months and never having said 'I love you' during sex.  Fast forward to the present.  Although my time with a provider is, at least in the initial booking, entirely sexual.  Its the connection during the session I remember first.  Its amazing how strong a sexual encounter can stick in your memory.  On a recent date with a provider, something happened that's never happened before.  The words 'I love you' came out.  It happened during sex, but prior to cumming.  The moment wasn't awkward.  We finished the session, told her I'd never said that to anyone before and we went on our way.  So here's the multiple choice:

1) Aberration.  She rocked your world. Move on.
2) ATF.  Never had one, now you do.
3) Embrace it.  It's ok to say I love you while hobbying.  There only words afterall.  If it makes you feel good, roll with it.
4) Ms. TER March.  Recommend her for Ms. T

It's not meant to be and I know that, never will but

Damn she's good

then when I'm laying there after the pop, I usually regret it, because I know I'm going to start getting texts everyday about how much SHE loves ME.  Lol

that what we mean when we say something like that is that we love them because they let us average joes live the life of a rock star.  

In fact, the last lady I saw told me she loved me. Slipping out after her 2nd long hard cum I knew exactly what she meant. That sometimes us average joes are above average.

But, "I" do not regret it

And I do not get those texts.

If we met under very different circumstances i'd try really hard to swoon her, date her, possibly more, Etc.
And I would never have started this hobby.

But, as I said, it will never happen and I acknowledge/understand that, however we have become close friends.

I see others to keep my feelings for her in check unlike most guys that see many just for the new / different / young factors.

I've also session-ed with her and not had sex, just great company and conversation, Yes, Paid because I want her to be able to retire some day and not look back.

You can call me dumb or gullible for that if you'd like, but for some of us, it is not JUST about sex, but the companionship and passion that our wife's stopped providing years ago.

I have a few favorites that I have seen a half dozen times or so but I have seen her over 50 times for a reason.

Hopefully some day you'll find a girl like that for you but, I think you are one of the other types of guys I mentioned which may be fine for you but I find a little sad.

Be well

Thanks for sharing...  It's strange how we post on these boards, anticipate a certain response and get something completely unexpected.  I had a recent 'date' that seemed to be moving along well.  We had been laughing and flirting when I had the urge to pay her a compliment.  I told her how beautiful her smile was.  At that instant, she looks me in the eye and says, ' I know you say that to all the women you see'.  ...her eyes told me she meant every word.  I realized at that moment how hollow words can appear, if said enough times.  I've seen, as you have, some of the most sincere and amazing women in this 'world'.  There is no price tag placed on the emotional connection established with a provider.  It's for that very reason I've chosen see as many providers as I can and not get to close.  Sad ?  Perhaps.  I guess I'm not as willing to take that leap of faith...

Faking is not only unhealthy for my gent; it is unhealthy for me. If I give false praise or pretend to enjoy myself when I'm not, I am not being fair to myself. So I don't fake anything. If I give a compliment, I mean it. If I say I like your touch, I really do.

I want my gents to be the same way with me. So if I get a compliment, I assume it's sincere.

As far as those three words, every worker hears them sooner or later. I have not minded when these words were said to me. In fact, I was honored.

But it is a four letter word I try to be careful with.  The connection is very strong and seems to be both ways.  She even recently told me she is so glad I'm in her life.  If we lived closer together we would probably have an exclusive arrangement.