But, "I" do not regret it
And I do not get those texts.
If we met under very different circumstances i'd try really hard to swoon her, date her, possibly more, Etc.
And I would never have started this hobby.
But, as I said, it will never happen and I acknowledge/understand that, however we have become close friends.
I see others to keep my feelings for her in check unlike most guys that see many just for the new / different / young factors.
I've also session-ed with her and not had sex, just great company and conversation, Yes, Paid because I want her to be able to retire some day and not look back.
You can call me dumb or gullible for that if you'd like, but for some of us, it is not JUST about sex, but the companionship and passion that our wife's stopped providing years ago.
I have a few favorites that I have seen a half dozen times or so but I have seen her over 50 times for a reason.
Hopefully some day you'll find a girl like that for you but, I think you are one of the other types of guys I mentioned which may be fine for you but I find a little sad.
Be well