I suppose everyone has their own reasons for hobbying. Me, I guess I'm in a sexless relationship where maybe both partners were really never that sexually attracted to each other. So I hobby to for that reason.  So here is the question. I've noticed that after my sessions I am starting to get depressed. I'm having sex with some amazing women.  They are gorgeous and in many cases intelligent fun people.  So I'm thinking to myself, in real life this person would never have this type of interaction with me. They are out of my league. It is sort of the realization that I could never really find a women that I'm really attracted to a least physically because I'm just not that attractive. Yeah I know this sounds shallow. Of course there is more to me or anyone else besides there physical beauty, but the whole picture is important, isn't it?

I had/have similar issues. Depression and anger. The challenge is I needed to separate fantasy from reality. Will my civie life ever live up to my hobby - no.  But will my favorite Provider be there to change my diaper when I'm 90 - no.

Not a lot of answers in my life other than you can't compare one with the other, and realize you probably have more "game" in your private life than you give yourself credit for. Many of these ladies can provide guidance on what may work outside the hobby - find a few you "trust" and see what they have to say.

Meanwhile, you're spending time and sharing intimate moments with some of the most beautiful women on the planet - your life doesn't suck as much as you may think.

Buddie,
You are selling yourself short (no pun intended) you should really be there to enjoy the company of some kind and caring women. Some of them are actresses following a script, so to speak, but look at the fun, the. Anticipation, the feeling like a sophomoric kid, lost in the lust. Just don't make it more than it is. Go see the magic show, and enjoy. These ladies are just real people too. They have their own ups and down, and are giving the best they can. But they are just people. No better or worse than you. There are probably a number of women in the world that would love to have a sincere, loyal, caring guy at there side. Women are attracted to intelligence, confidence, a sense of humor, and warmth. You are just praticing right now.
Solo, enjoy, practice, then take a shot at the real world. You can do this.