What happens when you fallen for a provider?

I've only done sessions with her (over 4 yrs). I care for her tremendously and fallen in love with her. She knows I love her, but cannot love me back. But, I know I am more than just another customer to her

She found a boyfriend 8 months ago and he's pressuring her to stop, effectively meaning I will lose her. I want her to quit also, but I'm torn between my selfish desire to continue seeing her, and my intentions to see a better future for her.

I don't see myself hobbying with anyone else, and I've tried but failed. Am I crazy? Any helpful advice, please

Just curious, why can she not love you back?

Are you married already?

Before anyone can councel you, there are a myriads of questions to be answered.

You might try bringing this to The Love Goddess on The Erotic Highway below.  This is right up her alley and she's been just buffing her nails for the last few days; business has been slow.

Be prepared to give her the whole nine yards of background on you and your erstwhile girl friend.

Best of luck to you.

The length of your relationship with this provider should make for an interesting response from the LG

It is very easy to fall for someone we have GREAT SEX with.  Many of us have crossed the line.  NSA = NO STRINGS ATTACHED.  That's what the hobby is all about.

You're not crazy, but you need to get a hold of yourself.  If she can not love you back...  no matter what, your relationship is limited to provider/client or no relationship at all.  If you stay, sooner or later you WILL get your heart broken.  Provider or Civie, anytime we love & it is not returned, your heart is gonna get broke.  The only question is now or later.
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All good things usually come to an end.  

One of the reasons many of us are here is because of variety.  Maybe you should find other ladies to experience.

This is a problem on many levels.

Honesty is gonna hurt a bit.. But heres the truth of the matter..

She isnt interested in you. If she was.. she would date you and wouldn't of found a boyfriend.
It is normal to lust for your provider. BUT there is a fine line.if you have been paying to see her for 4 yrs... and she hasnt moved to a serious thing.. then she isnt interested and really.. is just doing her job.,

And if she is saying she may leave the business my guest is she knows how u feel and its uncomfy for her now... So she is trying to say nicely that she doesnt wanna c u.

Sorry love,

Bella

As painful as it will be, you need to walk here.  Better to do so on your own terms, rather than have her cut you off abruptly.  Remember, you're a client to her...her outside the hobby BF is far more important, and influential with her.  Yes, it will hurt, but at least you will control your situation, and maybe end up better off in the LT...

As much as you think this sucks, it could suck a lot worse. Many, many guys have been taken for very long rides with very good actresses. Consider yourself fortunate that she has been honest about it. Move on with your life, and let her move on with hers.

This is only a guess, but I'd be willing to bet that after four years, you will be trying someone new. You say you've tried, but that was when she was available. Once she's not, it may be a different story.

my old post links that gave me guidance:


When it ends. Really, Really ends.

http://www.theeroticreview.com/discussion_boards/viewmsg.asp?MessageID=12674&boardID=20&page=


Can I ever see her again?

http://www.theeroticreview.com/discussion_boards/viewmsg.asp?BoardID=20&SortBy=DateCreated%20desc&SearchType=1&Author=Treetopflier&DayFrom=180&DayTo=0&MessageID=12781&frmSearch=1


Would you go "back"?

http://www.theeroticreview.com/discussion_boards/viewmsg.asp?MessageID=12904&boardID=20&page=