...and get back in the fucking game. Women in general are not going to understand just how stressful this is for a guy who has not had a lot of sexual partners, the nervousness, the worry about performance and satisfying her sexually (just human nature bud, we all go through it early on), then you throw in the possibility of LE and the fact that you have no idea what her personality will actually be like...I would guess this accounts for more than a few NCNS with guys. They just get themselves wrapped so tight they can't follow through. Anyway...pasting this in from a response I gave another guy this week:
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God I remember my first time with a provider, I just about shit my damn pants. Didn't help that she was holy-hell-fuckin'-hot and I had been with exactly twio women (7 year relationship, 23 year relationship) my entire life. Good times, right? More like just about puked. Even 6 or 8 months maybe 10 moths ago and many dates into the hobby, I found a women so beautiful that I literally damn near puked on the way over....then she kissed me like no women had ever kisseed me before and the knees got weak....that is a story for another day.
Anyway, don't forget to breath dude. Remember, this IS fun as hell, seeing a fantasy girl and having fantasy girl sex. She has seen and heard it all, trust me. Walk in, donation down, nice (not creepy) respectful hug, tell her you would love to give her a maasage to break the ice. Gives you time to settle and just enjoy intiimately touching a beautiful women. Gradually tell her what you like in a sexual partner, and don't be surprised if you get everythiing you want.
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And again, rub some fucking dirt on it and get back in the game son.