I'm still pretty new to this whole thing and I have a question for other newbies as well as more experienced hobbyists.  I seem to have a problem remembering details of my experiences with providers.  It is really strange so let me explain...

A few hours after the encounter is over, I can't really remember the event or even the girl very clearly.  It is almost like it was a dream or something; all the details are fuzzy.  Because of this, I have to write my reviews within hours of seeing a provider to ensure accuracy.  The dream analogy is the best way to describe it; it's all just kind of a blur.  Is this common for newbies?  Maybe I just have to get more accustomed to the entire process...

since about 1974 and I still remember some of the fun (and not so fun) details from years and years ago. I would think that would be something that would stay with you for a good long while. Who knew??!?!?!?!?!?

I can understand aspects of what you are saying. It can be a lot to take in and assimilate. You are nervous about LE, unsure about some of the etiquette issues, confronted with a lady you don't know taking her clothes off, etc. You can sort of have tunnel vision, where you remember certain things, but your brain can't process the entirety fast enough for it to make it from short term memory into long term memory. So some of the experience goes *poof* fairly quickly.

As you get your "hobby legs", as a lady told me, you'll start to be comfortable with the process. You won't worry so much about certain issues, leaving more of your brain to savor on the lady, and what you do with her. It can take awhile for you to get that sense of ease, but give it time. While not to the extent you are talking about, I do understand your experiences, because I had a bit of it myself. Still not all the way abated, but I know that I do have plenty of wonderful memories that are sticking, and it is easier every time.

Be safe. Have fun.

Ren'man

This is a normal reaction to the unnatural biz of buying sex.  It means it's not natural to you. And why should it be?  After all, how many people have trouble remembering the good things and happy moments in their lives? Anything you have to work at to overcome a natural, healthy reaction to is probably not that good for you. Try meeting some real women who don't have to get money to touch you. Who can feel proud of that?

of that.

The is a better place when leave an appointment. The sun shines brighter. I smile more, nothing bothers me.

I just got a custom performance where the star did what I wanted, when I wanted it, for as long as I wanted it.  She even acted like she as having a good time and would welcome me back anytime with open arms. Yeah I gave her some money, it seemed natural enough to me, god knows she deserved it. It was worth it, it felt great I can't wait to do it again.

After you get your "sea legs" under you (another way to say experience), you will manage just fine.  Right now you still have the candy store buzz.

So tell me about the natural biz of buying sex - go to a bar, pick up a girl, buy her drinks, maybe dinner, maybe more drinks, maybe a trinket on the way, perhaps a couple extra cab rides and then you may get lucky.

For me buying sex is perfectly natural, either way, and very memorable.

What I tend to forget, often as quickly as possible, are other services that I have to pay for - doctors, dentists, lawyers and accountants.

To your point of  "Anything you have to work at to overcome a natural, healthy reaction to is probably not that good for you" - how do you manage to get to and through a dentist appointment, a proctologist's exam or a colonoscopy? I know I have to work to overcome my natural reactions to those events.

MH50

Just kidding...

For me, the memorable parts stick.

And on rare occasions, there are some details I'd be just as happy to forget... uh-oh.

Yes, Yes. and yes again.  Especially the first time.  I have been out 5 times this year. Once you relax  and really focus you will be able to remember every detail.  I once worked with a high school wrestiling team some years back as an assistant.  The head coach could remember all the moves the wresters did in their match, everyone of them, it was amazing. Not that you will remember every move and response made in your trist with a lady,  but it does get better. God I love this hobby!

I'm asking because it might be an explanation why your provider dates feel so blurry and dreamlike.  Are you able to go out and easily find civvie sex?  Can you pick up women in bars?  Have you ever had one-night stands?  If your answers to all these are "no", then there is your explanation.  You're so used to experiencing constant dry spells from not being able to easily find sex, that when you're fooling around with a woman within 15 minutes of walking in the door, it's such a shock to your brain, it simply doesn't know how to process such an experience, and can't integrate it with the rest of the information stored.  So it protects itself by not registering the hobby encounter at all, and dismissing it as something that might have been a vivid dream.  It's kind of like repression of a shocking experience, but on a much smaller scale.

I'm not a pick-up artist, so I felt the same things you did when I first started hobbying.  The most "shocking" (and also the best) part was knocking on the door, seeing a gorgeous women standing inside, and knowing I'll be having sex with her in just 15 minutes.  That alone completely clashed with I've known throughout my pre-hobby life.  It took me at least a few shots at hobbying before I started viewing that as at least somewhat normal.

Then again, if you're the type of man who can pick up women anytime anywhere, then feel free to disregard the previous paragraphs.  In this case, the hobby is just a way of adding variety, and my theory wouldn't hold true.

Bring a notebook and jot everything down as it happens.
Just kidding.
As everyone else said once become a little more seasoned you will remember.