This would be my first, first time.  Yup, I haven't even kissed a girl.  Well, kind of but there was no tongue so I do not know if that counts.  Everything just got too frustrating for me lately.  I'm 26.

I have a few providers that I was thinking of contacting for GFE.  I'm a bit worried though.  Mostly of LE, I mean one of them may be trolling and reading this thread.  I'll probably be so worried of LE at the beginning, during, and near the end of the hr I'll probably forget why I'm even there.  lol.  

It was my fear of LE that ended the start of my first relationship?  Long story.  What I missed most, strangely, was just holding her hand during dinner.  It was our 1st date, we were suppose to have a 2nd one but she changed her mind.  Four yr friendship gone just like that.  I kind of wish we just stayed friends.  

I've heard that some places do the LE check at the door.  But what does that accomplish really from the LE standpoint, they are still guys?  

But what do you do if rates are not listed?  If too high what do you say?  To be polite?  The rate part confuse me a bit.  

I don't have an atm card so... I kind of need to know the rates before hand.  I was thinking of going to Jewels.  I dunno what the rates are for 1hr or if it's different for each girl?  I dunno if this is a good idea or not but I kind of want her to show me how to do everything, what she likes and I kind of want to go down on her too.

Do you think a hobby phone is necessary?  I'm only planning on doing this once to get it out of my system, but who knows.  I need to put some money to the side so I'm thinking in like June I would perferr the very moment after some responses but money wise I need to save up.

You are not ready to start, and you may never be until you overcome this LE phobia.


Can you explain why you feared LE just because you were holding your girl friend's hand?  I'm not surprised that she cancelled the second date.

The hobby is not for people who have issues regarding interpersonal relationships, which I think is a problem you have.  I would suggest you seek a mentor or counsellor to work out these issues before even going down the hobby road.  I'd be afraid that you would get too emotionally involved with a gal who was nice to you, and then there would be a lot more problems in your life.

As to your more nuts and bolts questions about the hobby, though I think it is a bit premature, you ought to read the Self Help Manual that is linked on this page, and also follow this board daily for discussions that relate to getting started in this hobby.

Just a final note:  The LE check is a myth, the most important way to avoid meeting LE is to see only well reviewed providers, but then only when you have overcome some of these devils that are afflicting you.

Best wishes.

lol.

No, I wasn't worried about LE from just holding her hand.  That would just be odd.  I loved having dinner with her.  She wanted to hookup in my car and I got scared of LE because we were in a well lite area and their were people just down the block in eye view.  That and I had to go to court in 2 weeks at the time.  I got worried that if caught that would make my case more difficult.

The fact that it was a well lite area, my car has no tints, people down the street in eyeview...  If LE doesn't drive by I was sure someone would report it.  We were just friends and she wanted to hook up, now we are not even friends.  

If you're caught having sex in a car that's a misdemeanor charge, obviously, I didn't want to go to court with multiple charges.  I had to go to court and all I could think about was if we get caught, and LE realize I had to go to court they might charge me a 2nd misdemeanor to make things worse.    

BTW, it got dismissed because of how stupid the charge was.  

Sorry for the confussion, I didn't want to go on forever in a post.