I too was frustrated w/dating...after an early marriage that completely turned many things upsidedown for me...I got away
(I should say I didn't let him back after he left the.3rd time & tried to come back) anyway during the separation
I learned so much about who I had married & I realized how blind I had been & how I often lied to myself & made excuses for getting treated like a doormat.
It took sum time & the social interaction that a metropolitan area provides rather then an isolated small town & slowly I rebuilt my sense of self, confidence, & defined what I believed in & who I was...during this time I did the single parent duties, while holding a full time job & part time beauty school ...I was busy but it was MUCH better then working 16hr. Shifts draining catheders and changing diapers (CNA) while pregnant as my husband job hopped...
See his $ was always his $ & my $ was for living on....anyway being single wasn't easy...ther are SO many ways for people to take advantage even 4those of us that have healthy confidence & simply believe in doing what's right.
I can't even go thru memories of how many times I stopped another abusive situation from happening....yeah I got the random manipulation & learned most all humans manipulate now & then.
A few uninteresting detors & life lessons later...& I stumbled upon the hobby world...via the massage self serve world & quickly onto my own, after some consideration I decided to "go a lil deeper" w/ these new special friends.
Forever proud & grateful I've learned so much from this sexXy segue...I've always been in tune w/my sexuality & have an unquenchable thirst for knowledge of all human sexuality, when making my decision I thought of each potential consequence frm every angle,deciding I can handle wut may come my way.... Maybe I entered into this a little jaded re: men & the many ways I'd been duped or just financially used...I learned a hell of a lot from providing & intrestingly the men's preceptive....((what's life w/o learning & growing right?!?))
Anyway in summary no matter where life takes me....I'll always be 4-ever grateful of hobby life it changed me in great ways.
P.S. I have (more than once) had plenty of off the clock time w/those I consider friends...the many stereo types of this hobby are not one size fits all & IMO hobby life is ever-evolving so for all of you who make across the board statements & assumptions plz. remember you just might be wrong.
P.S.S. I find it super amusing that ppl wonder who pays taxes & ppl try to judge what should & shouldn't be discussed. Information is power ppl. And it's just my personal opinion (I guess) but free is free & if you believe in freedom you might make sure you understand the definition.

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