In the good ol' days of MFP... there was a community that could provide support.

How might we do so now?

I have received numerous emails, pm's, calls and text messages that I have not answered.  My apologies and it seems easier at this point to just type something up.  So here I am sitting in chemo with my laptop typing away.  

So to answer all of your question:  How am I doing?  To be completely honest the answer is horrible!  The day I was told I had cancer was a horrible day but in my mind I knew I could handle it.  A lot of things have changed since that day.  
I have lost a best friend, a child and my health this year.  Things are a struggle at the moment and I guess it's time I admit it.
I haven't been able to work in some time now so financially things are rough.  I don't mind so much as I grew up very poor.  I just feel bad for the kids but I suppose this all is making them stronger.  Last night we cuddled in the same bed because it was chilly, in the dark telling jokes to lighten the situation.  I always wait until they are sleeping before I shed a tear.  Mommy's have to be tough.  I wish I had a mother or a father or my grandparents back:  Somebody to come give me a hug and tell me things will be okay (even if they know they might not be).  I worry that if I don't make it my children will have the life I had and I don't wish growing up without parents upon anybody, esp. my own....  The doctor's have told me that I won't make it but I just don't believe them.  In the case that they are right, I have prepared for death.
The physical things I have gone through and am going through are a lot to handle but the body is strong.  The emotional toll is something that has to be dealt with daily as there is no way to prepare for situations like this.

So yes, I am alive just not real well at the moment.  I have not forgotten any of you just on a break to deal with the cards life has dealt me.  I am taking things one day at a time right now and trying to get healthy.  I appreciate every single one of you that have been here to support me through my struggle, everybody that has thought about me and said a prayer and everybody who has taken the time to listen when I have needed to vent.

Please take the time to enjoy your life and make the most of it.  You never know what day will be your day and the day a doctor tells you that you probably won't make it will crush you.  Hold your family tight and make sure they know how important they really are.  

I miss you all and hope to be back one day soon.....

PS-Not taking the time to proof read so if my spelling or grammar happens to be bad-excuse it.

We have never met, but my prayers go out to you and your family. Feel better soon. Keep strong.

for the words of reflection and reminder of what life offers us each and every day.  Best of luck to you.
Wow, you are strong.

Your message is a very powerful one and I have you and your family in my prayers and I hope you beat the odds and pull through this ok.  God Bless you.

I had the distinct pleasure of meet you a long while ago!  Your wit and unique observational humor, still shine bright in my memory.  

And by the way, your writing is pretty outstanding without editing.  

............Love from Minnesota.........

You are a very strong person and have been through a lot, you will make it, you're a survivor.

Any chance there is a trustworthy friend of Leah's that we could direct gifts and financial support through?

I hope you make a full recovery and have many, many chances to enjoy a long and full life.

Attempting to contact her through email, phone or pm and trying to figure something out might be the most efficient at helping her out.

She probably has a re-loadable green dot card which would allow anyone to go to a Walmart, provide the number and load it with cash anonymously for those who desire discretion.

Hang in there and keep fighting. We are rooting for you!

try to keep Minnesota updated is because you all have seemed to care through my journey with cancer.  One day, after I hopefully beat cancer, I think I will move to your great state.  Although, somebody will have to teach me how to drive on snow.  Scary thought!

I greatly appreciate the love and support you all have given and continue to give me.  Kind words go a long way.

As to the question if somebody would like to help me out how would they go about doing so.  I do have a greendot or the mail.  You could email me directly at [email protected].  TER is hard to navigate on my old 1990's phone and I don't have internet at home.  I am not asking for help:  i have learned to embrace the struggle but at this point I would not reject help either.

Thank you to everybody again.  The kind words and support mean more than you will ever know.  

A super big thank you to MatureGFE, in case you all don't know she is a wonderful lady!  Also, my soul sister Samantha Good.

so I'm sure you can beat this again. Hopefully we can meet again but no matter what I will never forget you as one of the most unique and inspirede young Ladie I have had the pleasure of getting to know just a little. Our vistit was truely enlightening and made me apprieciate what I have. I treasure the time we had to just visit. I travel a lot and think of you driving around on your journeys and how you would go miles out of the way to see something small but interesting. I've been on the lookout for one of those canes for my old age

Best wishes to you and your family. Hope to be giving you a lesson on driving in snow real soon. No life jacket needed.

BN

I have had the pleasure of your company and if there is anyone in this world who can survive its you. Your a fighter and you will beat this. See you on your next visit to our great state.

I have never met you either, but I always enjoyed your posts. I too am dealing with my second round of cancer, mine too came back, but I have a good prignosis. It still sucks. I am sorry the doctors haven't given you better news but it doesn't make them right.I know you will fight this any way you can. My prayers are with you that you will beat this and it will turn out to be a bump in the road. If you ever need to talk, feel free to PM me anytime. I'll say a prayer for your kids too.

As you know, I have been impressed by how you are dealing with your health and the loss of your beloved child.  You are brave and strong and always try to see the positive in people and in every situation you have had to deal with.  Facing life with a smile and holding hope for your children's future when you would rather curl up in a ball and cry is an important message for all of us.    You are an inspiration.  I will continue to pray for you and your children.   Bless you and best of wishes!
Big huge hugs,
Belinda

of individuals with common ground.  I know that if something were to happen to me that caused me to stop working, I would appreciate the support of the community of providers and hobbyists alike.  If you can step up to the plate and help out, that's a blessing to others.  

Miss Leah, I am sending healing thoughts to you (and will PM you to find out what you need).  Stand Strong, girl.  

Alantra

Count me in as yet another soul keeping you in my thoughts, and trying to send positive energy your way. It all starts with attitude. Stay strong. We've got your back.  

We, on this board, have taken a liking to you long ago with your down home, midwestern charm and sense of humor. Of course we care. Best wishes and my prayers to you and your family.