Cherry Broken

I just had my first session with a provider this weekend  She was fantastic but I was mighty nervous.  I'm not sure why that was, I'm far from a virgin and have been with a wide variety of women in my life including recent history, but it felt like my first time all over again.  I had a quick flashback of being just past 16 in the back of my little SUV at a secluded spot by a local lake.  I had the same sort of feelings: the desire and attraction being overwelming but the performance just not being there.  "what do I do?"  "where do I put my hands?"  "was that gasp pleasure or discomfort?"  "oh crap, why's my erection half gone?" =))

So, aside from providing you all a little comic relief I'm wondering if this is common?  More a question for the providers than the hobbyists I suppose (I don't want to ruin anyone's rep as the Peter North of the hobby  Maybe my fellow hobbyists can comment on this though - I definitely was overthinking (obviously) and I think a lot of that was all of this protocol I had been reading (what can you say, can't you say, how to act, what's on menus, not on menus, blah blah blah).  Having been there now it's all just common sense really (for anyone with a clue I guess ) but anyone else experience the same?

or I could be unique and weird and I'm ok with that

Going back all those years again, I know my second time with that high school gf was fantastic and as awkward as the first was it's still a memory I hold dear; I'm sure this will be similar and now that I've been there and done that the next experience will feel much more comfortable and natural.

Thanks all!
bravotango