but I can't help it.

Ummm, seriously?!?! Some fantasies seem like they should be left unfulfilled. These forums have a sanctimonious 'don't judge anyone' feel to them, which I get, but some of these seem too far out for me. This qualifies.

I don't know dude. I hope, for the sake of humanity, you don't find any takers.

I am always on the lookout myself and they are few and far between right now. Lactating providers as well im always on the look out for. Good luck on your search!