One year ago, I was told I'd never be anything with out "her". Three years ago, I was told on a scale of 1-10, I was almost a 7 and that with "her" help, I'd be a bright beautiful diamond. Such wonderful words to an insicure, nieve young girl, who just wanted someone to trust.
I have learned the hard way in life about many of things, but friendship was just recent. Friendships aren't always easy, nor real; especially in a city where everyone is out for themselves. "Ignorance is Bliss" they say, and this is because when you are ignorant, you don't allow yourself to believe the truth.
The truth is, I was who I always will be. There is no one who "changed me" or "mad me" because I am the one who is doing what I do. Believing I was only a minor part in the big picture, was what "she" did best. It was like one big circle of emotions, and "she" plays all the cards. To speak about the death of a family member in order to get me to open up, but I shame myself for letting that happen.
Today I am a new person. I am confident, because I know if I want to achieve something I can! I know that I am a beautiful person inside and out! There is no one who can hold me down, nor dampin my spirits, even though "she" stills tries to blackmail me, the truth will come out eventually, and Karma is REAL.
My advice for the ladies who may be effected by "her" is "Believe nothing of what you here, and only half of what you see," some of "her" information is months behind, if its really true. You know my number, you can ask anything, I really have no empathy for "her". When it all boils down to it, "she" just lives vicariously through the lives of Sweet, Beautiful, YOUNG MINDED, women. So, I begin my new year, with everything in the past, and I am still moving foward. This year, is a new year, and full of new adventures!!!
-- Modified on 3/12/2007 3:29:55 PM