I finally made it to Tijuana Mexico and it is wonderful! After missing 3 flights I finally got on one to San Diego. They were all full and overbooked and I can honestly see why. To me this place is heaven right now. My legs and back pain are getting worse, and I am not sure what is going to happen. Yet, Ana picked me up at the airport. BTW I am in a wheel chair right now.  

Tomorrow they are going to do MRI and X-Rays. I do not know how to describe it. Before I left, I thought if I have to live in this non-functional body........I will just check out some way.......Yet coming down here in a wheel chair, everyone was so nice. I have the Balcony door open, smoking a cig and over looking the city.  

Somehow I feel free.Do not know why. My brother cut off all my credit card that we had together, which is very stressful.When Ana pulled up to the hotel entrance, the Bell person looked at me in my baggy jeans, with no makeup on and hair pulled up in a pony tail. He looked into my eyes and I knew he did not know my name. Yet, I knew he remembered me from July 2014.  

He helped me walk up the stairs and when I went to the desk, they basically said they had no rooms. What was to happen after that was such a warm welcome. He said you find her a room. Wow, we talked for a bit and he said he lived at Rosita Beach on the Ocean and only paid $200 a month.

I don't know guys and people, if I don't make it back then that is OK with me. If this Dr. Mora can heal me from the chronic back pain I have been having since someone hit me in November 7, 2014 it will be a Miracle.........

It is amazing when I have lost my health and have been confined to my bed for 5 months....that people don't care if I am in a Wheel Chair, or have designer cloths, or hair extensions, they don't care if I unable to tip......

Not sure where this Journey is going. And I don't care if I make it back. If my back and legs can be healed then I will work out here waiting tables, enjoy the Sunshine, the no drama place, live in a furnished placed like Rosita Beach or Tijuana............I have found that not all that glitters is gold.

Heck I bought a blow up twin size bed. If I live in a tent right now and get my health back, I just want to be free.......I have one heck of a time........Thank you everyone. Goodnight. Kelley

Kelly,  

We haven't met, but I've come to appreciate your presence on the board. I hope that you are able to regain your health and that come what may you are happy

Southern Gent, that is amazing that you just checked in. Yes, this is a wonderful place on TER. I do not have access to my email right now, yet it was so refreshing to read and hear from somebody like you that we have intertwined our lives good and bad since 2006.  

There are amazing ladies here and the ones you just mentioned I recognize their names. It is kind of refreshing from some of the previous posts. I realize that we all go thru hard times and good times. Being out of my element down here has taken me somewhat out of my depression, hopelessness, and that bottle of pills looks less inviting to take.

If they cannot fix me, then hopefully I will get an electric wheel chair and scoot around. To look at me I do not look that bad, I still have my bedroom skills and my sense of humor. Isolation in times like this to me is the so called "Deviled Advocates"

Yes, we have enjoyed the Journey thru the past years, weaving in and out of each others life, catching up sharing etc. I always told myself when I was younger that by the time I reached a certain age, I will have gone and done experienced and had fun and never look back.

If anyone does has an Electric Wheel chair, please pm me and see what we can work out. Right now the pool outside is so inviting, yet getting their is the hard part. Once I get there people can help me in and out of the pool.  

I think we all go thru grief differently. Elizabeth Kubler Ross on the 5 stages. I remember this from school.  
Denial, like this is not happening to me it will go away. Anger, why is this happening to me? Bargaining, "OK God, if I do this, will you do that?"

 Depression, the feeling of no way out that life will never be the same, why am I still here.? Acceptance........where I seem to be right now. No life will not be the same, yet I can do this, and I an fortunate to have friends, a house to live in and my furry critters etc. ......

With all that being said, It was so nice to see you on the board today. I debated about posting this, yet, that would still leave me in the denial state. I have to move on and get not only physically better, which may not happen, yet I have to change my mind set......And be thankful for what I do have. It is like Dad always said, Could be worse. Thanks for letting me share. Sincerely, Kelle

Thank you Rufus--Firefly. I know from your words, that is heart felt and I really appreciate the kindenss from reading your message. Kelley

 

Posted by Rufus-T-Firefly, 3/14/2015 9:44:44 AM  
Kelly,  
 
We haven't met, but I've come to appreciate your presence on the board. I hope that you are able to regain your health and that come what may you are happy

Kelly my name is Jennifer and I feel for you and the your situation. Keep us posted on your progress .  I have been to Mexico a few times just not your part. Call me if you need a friend . Keep on putting one foot in front of the other"so to speak".  
352 222 6699
Love Jennifer .

I will be thinking about you and sending positive thoughts your way.

Jennifer I appreciate that. If anyone has international calling the number here is 011-52-664-663-3900 Lurcerna, room 620. This is when I would like to have an escort just to go places and do things with. Kelley

Wow, how the tables turn when I am alone. I would love to have an escort just to go places and do things with. Kelley White

Wish i could help you...

 
I hope you find the cure you need..

Matbe one day we can meet.

Enjoy your time out west and happy healing to you.

I know VERY well chronic pain.  I live with it every second of every day and thats not an exaggeration.  Just becomes white noise after awhile.  Tylenol keeps at a dull ache when it decides to make itself more prevalent and annoying.  I hope you can get yourself fixed up.  People take for granted their health until they no longer have it.  Having your health is a great thing and you should work to preserve it.  I hope you can find your way back.

Thank you for the PM, Kelley

Leon, you are so right. Without health the body expires and the Spirit goes.......Thank you. Kelley

I am a newbie on TER but have followed you on occasion.  I live in Raleigh, but if I were in Charlotte I would love to see you!

I wish you the best of luck ! Keep us informed !

Kisses....

Thank you so much. Just go out of the procedure today and most  my pain is gone. They did an MRI, blood tests and urine test the same day. The MRI was back in 20 minutes and the Doctor showed me my spine.

He worked on L2.L3 and L5 where the car hit me in the drivers seat I could clearly see L5 was the on that was shooting into my sciatic nerve. Like half way. From the car wreck. Yet, I am much better today and I appreciate all the replys and PM's. Everyone has been so supportive and that kept me going.

Words cannot describe the way so many on the board have reached out to me and it was really heart warming to say the least. Kelley White