This is first and foremost a job.
Me? I'm Bipolar. When I graduated from college my dad said "I'm proud of you but you'll never work a day in your life, you have too much of your mother in you" - that was southern for "you will have difficulty maintaining focus, you will alternate between operating at your full potential and going to sleep for weeks at a time unable to function with the public or see things without a black or white perspective".
I watched my mother trash every friendship / relationship she ever had, work at the pleasure of her clients in her business for two years, go down sleeping for two years at a time, on and off.
No matter how you come to this business it is a business. You take care of people and make them happy. Angel you always had a big following in Boston - returning to your clients? There is no shame in that. Our clients take care of us are interested in what we are doing and our well-being. Just people taking care of people.
You sound depressed and I hope that you're able to get over that and your heart is soothed by the people who love you.
But don't lament "un-retiring" - you know how to do it, you're good at it, you can make money at it, get a good assistant and relax. You can always figure out what your passion is while you're working- I introduced a girl to sensual massage two years ago, she loved it, she went to school for it and that was her ticket to retirement at the time when it was right for her and her heart was moving in a different direction. Its all good, don't fret, welcome back and don't think of this business as a trap, think of it as a job, a stepping stone and a path to freedom.
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