Have you ever met a women who is so genuine and real you blur the lines? Amanda Playmate is a women that makes me feel so virile and special that I am starting to develope feeling for her? The L word is on the tip of my tounge but I am afraid I will scare her away. She is total fantasy wife material. I get all nervous and tounge tied everytime we get together. I worry if what I say is stupid. I get this school boy feeling. Reading her reviews is becoming upsetting. It makes me jealous others are enjoying what I only want to have with her. What should I do? By reading her reviews I guess she makes many happy. Am I foolish to think she treats me this way because she feels the same way? I think sometimes women should not make men feel so special because it leads to depression. Be real for us ladies. You make it so hard not to blur the line.

I am flattered you feel this way but I am not in the market for a relationship. It is unhealthy for you to pursue this any longer. It would be best for you to seek companionship elsewhere. This type of confession scares me.

Also I would prefer that my name stay off the boards. I know people like to write fantasy stories (aka) reviews about me and that is fine. I have been seeing little things pop up here and there about me and it is hard to stay UTR if my name keeps coming up. I try to just brush it off but I had to say something about it. I prefer to minimize my exposure yet I do not want my email box forming cobwebs either.

CREEPY.....Don't listen to the voices in your head and go join a dating service.

You have scared her away.

jealousy is not appropriate in this hobby.

You are foolish.

What is blurred is your thinking.

If you are feeling everything in your post, you should seek professional (not provider) help.

If it is a shill note, congratulations!!!

What is wrong with some people?!

I fall in love when I walk through the door and then out of love the minute I walk out the door.

It's the only way to enjoy this hobby. Have a great time while you're there, make sure sure the lady enjoys your company, and then move on to the next one like she does!

I doubt very much any lady is thinking about me the minute I leave.--LOL!

I know how you are feeling, FH. I've been there.

I'll never forget the lunch lady at my junior high school. With the alluring aroma of meatloaf wafting past her from the inner kitchen of my junior high school cafeteria, we'd exchange knowing looks as she loaded up my tray with mystery meat, powdered potatoes, and instant gravy. I know she always gave me a little extra, and that while her smile was for all the other creepy kids in line, it touched her eyes only when she looked at me.

She knew that the way to a man's heart was through his stomach, and I knew with all the certainty of youth that someday we would be together. It didn't matter that I was a scrawny 12 year old small town white kid and she was a 50 year old grossly obese black woman with a prison tatoo; we had a connection.

It didn't work out for me, but that doesn't mean you shouldn't stalk your.... sorry, I mean pursue your dream.

Leave this young lady alone. Don't make me come back to Boston. Just because we have created the IDEA of the bond and intimacy doesn't mean that it's actually real.
Some ladies have great FRIENDSHIPS outside a session. Obviously, you have no idea how to seperate reality from fantacy. Here is what I suggest. Go see the thearpist that advertises for mental health issues, here on TER. Then take a few "I've see the light pills" and never whisper her name again.
Personally, I think you should eat some meatloaf, drop the drama, and go fk your wife for once.

theformerangierenee
[email protected], just in case you have a weak moment and want to email her. email me, I'll put you through hell I mean..to help.

How b'bout them Celtics! Damn I miss Boston!

The guy just sounds desperately lonely.
This causes some men, who can't get it any
other way, to turn to the hobby. Seems like
some people can't understand how much loneliness
hurts. Have some compassion.

Clarence,

May I add to your reply?  You said "the way to a man's heart is through his stomach."  That is true, but there is another area of the body too! wink!

Lisa of Boston

why are you replying to me? surely a classy lady of your wit and experience realizes that my meatloaf story was satirical?

anyway, it's always nice to hear your "no bullshit" voice!

Honey I wasn't responding to you. I thought what you said was awesome. I should have made it clear that I was responding to the original poster. Sorry for the confusion. I thought it was obvious when I told him to eat meatloaf, take a pill and fk his wife.
I love ya' sweetie. I would never come down on my friends on the board, unless they were being total idiots,
email me and I'll tell you about the underscore [email protected]

Hugs
AR

and i figured you were replying to him, not me... just making sure everybody ELSE got it as well

Hey, speaking of confusion, how do you make that icon wink? Or am I just fantasizing that you are winking at me?

>> Have some compassion.

The most compassionate thing anyone can do for 'fallinghard' is to set him straight in the most forceful possible way so that he might snap out of it.

When a person gets emotionally fixated like that, they will take any and every opportunity to misinterpret a "no" as a "yes."  And in the long run, that will make their life 100x worse than a few harsh and ridiculing words.