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Does this mean you are not seeing the rest of us ??

I am true gfe for all my hobbyiests!!!  I love them all!

This is my first (and probably last) post, so I hope I am not breaking any rules.  I have been in the hobby since December of last year.  Since early this year, I have had an ongoing thing with a local provider that has been special.  Sweet, smart, beautiful girl, but messed up personal life.  Stood me up multiple times, would go dark for over a month, etc.  Ended up seeing her off the clock many more times than on, and I never gave her anything of real value - chocolates and cheap lunches.  Thought it meant something to her, but it seems she was just using me (and probably others) to help her through a rough patch emotionally.  As of yesterday, I am not sure I will ever hear from her again - unless the wheels fall off her personal life bus and she needs something.  Certainly not what I wanted to get into when I started the hobby, but the circumstances with her really played on my personal values.  Which, despite it all, if she does call for a platonic meeting, I will go and try to be positive - I really think had we met under different circumstances, we would have been true friends.  I have no idea what we are now.

I am trying to put a good spin on it - don't cry because it is over, smile because it happened - but it is not easy.  Makes me wonder if the hobby is worth it - internet porn never stands you up and is free!

I'm not sure lol.  but I do know that the sex is excellent and he is really sweet!

Re: damn, I am infatuated with a hobbiest! lol

You are irresistable!!!  Yes you are!!!

I think I love you too!!!!