I thought we were getting to be friends. She gave me her real name and number and we went on dates off the clock. She was fun to be with but after all these agencies closed up, she disappeared and doesn't answer my texts (maybe she got rid of that phone).

It sounds like she did both of you a favor.

I'm just saying I thought we were friends. And if it becomes difficult to make a living when your agency shuts down and everything looks risky, I would think she'd want to keep in touch at least as a source of some help. But maybe she has friends and places to go.

Good lord man, snap out of it

Everyone loves that new provider smell. Lol

I had my ATF fall off the face of the earth. I was really missing her, probably too much. Then I met a provider who's destined to be my new ATF.

Hey man, you hurt my feelings with that response.  
But now that you mention it ... I could use a pedicure.

Yeah, I know what you're saying ... But you know you've had those times when it was like trying out a new restaurant and you kept being disappointed. I'm just bummed that I had a good one that I really liked. Oh, I just happen to like sticking to one provider.

I miss my references. After all of these agencies closed up they just disappeared........  
I'll just miss them.  
Damn you gals sure were good at record keeping

Dude, believe me most of us know where you are coming from.
She did you just right, she looked just how you like. She smell nice and taste so good.
She pushed those buttons right and she cum good for you too.

that record keeping might be a problem.  Every agency and provider always told me they
don't keep records!  lol

I get it. Had an awesome young muscular girl get close to me. She shared a lot about herself but also started to share how much she hated the biz. Killed the magic a bit. Then something weird happened with her ex and she disappeared overnight without a word.

Tough to remember that at times.  But things like this just remind you how "in the moment" this world is.  And how people come and go.  Faster than real life.. but it also happens there too- but not quite as abruptly.

Not your provider, not your pussy, just your turn.
lol lessons learned from my father I think.

I know I know.  
I even knew when she had seen a client just before me but would still make it feel like it was only me she ever spent time with. She really was very good at GFE.

You sound confused about your feelings.

Very well said as usual Miss Taylor.

I didn't really get that "pissed off" vibe in the OP...  more of a "hurt" thing (which is why there were all those "be a man and get over it comments") - but I am not you and I don't do this for a living....  

Fear leads to anger. Anger leads to hate. Hate leads to suffering.

I knew that sounded familiar... and if you'll remember Luke didn't actually go over to the dark side.... though certainly Darth Vader did....  

Ah, I let my VIP membership expire so I can't read any PMs.

Thanks for the advice everyone, they all made sense.
I just posted something I was feeling at the time and I forgot how people like to make judgments and share their conclusions from their quick analysis of something with little details.

I would recommend paying the 20 bucks if she was worth it to you.

That's why you should always have at least two. Somewhere to go when you feel the need and then come home ad look in the mirror of life. We are all polygamists here. like it or not we see other people and there in no future in jealous feelings. Life is short. Live in the moment,  treat others as you want to be treated and make one life enough.

Stop showing natural human emotions! Guys aren't supposed to do that! Get it together!