If you give it time, you will see another come around that. With the hundreds out there - what are the chances your first would be your last. I think you are still wrapped up in the moment, savor it. At least this way your budget will be in check until you find another special lady.

And from the sounds of it, you should consider a repeat with that one. Might be difficult, especially if she was here for a brief visit.

And a word of advise, don't make it public who you saw and considered the top, only to insult others who you have in the middle - they are all hot and I always have a hard time deciding who is next, or who I will repeat with.

But most who know me, know after all the frustration of selection and budget problems, I go seek relief from my local therapist only putting off that opportunity to experience what you did. I need to learn to hold out I guess, just can't go a couple of months without...

When I started this hobby back in '99 it was with some not to professional ladies, students making a little on the side. My second professional was much like you discribed--awesome. While I could have spent all my time and money with her, I instead used my time with her as a benchmark for all others.  I can only suggest you do the same. Eventually you will feel different about this lady IF you over do it. Don't spoil it for yourself or her.

And yes, I still visit my ATF on occasion, but we are friends first now.

Take some time and go on a hobby trip. Travel north to PA (Philly, Harrisburg) and find a hot provider(s). Only visit them once in a while for an overnighter or long appointment. That will satisfy your need for a hot provider.

Take some time and develop a local shopping list. I have found that some of my best sessions are with providers who are into providing good service  with a good attitude.

You can also see the most attractive hotest visiting providers if you want to save the travel expenses. Of course check out the reviews to make sure they have the performance requirements you are looking for.

-- Modified on 5/13/2006 6:19:31 AM

Enjoy the ride down the hill.

a) If I could control myself, I wouldn't be here.

b) Stop your daily self-pleasuring. You'd be surpised how many super-hot women you start seeing after a day or two of "build up".

c) Why on earth would this particlar question be directed at the ladies? That makes no sense whatsoever. This is a "for the guys" question if ever there was one. Questions for the ladies would be more a like:

What is your biggest turn on/off?
Do you like shaved men, natural, or comb-overs?
What sort of screening would you do for a newbie?
Would you prefer chocolate or wine?
What size t-shirt do you wear?

-- Modified on 5/14/2006 6:07:59 AM

Why?  Consider yourself lucky, and be glad you found a lady to rock your world.

 See her , and then when its timer to move on, or your in the mood for some different tastes, then find another hottie.

 Just dont fall in love dude, LOL