i seriously have issues. in the beginning, i was all confused, wondering why the attraction was and how deep it would run, yada yada yada- ive gotten over all these issues But now, I am visiting girls, topping, and thought id never in a million years try bottoming, ive done both...and the sex sucks! topping them is no real fun, even with lube its tight and id much rather prefer a vagina. bottoming-doesnt feel good down there. the turn on for that is seeing them top me, but as for the feeling, i dont prefer it.
so im finally acting out my fantasy and it kinda sucks. the problem is though i am most turned on by transsexuals but dont really like having sex with them. i know this makes no sense.
i dont know what yall could say to me, but can anyone shed some light as to what my problem is.

What was/is the fantasy that turns you on?

Maybe it isn't topping or bottoming but some other sexual activity?

Did you see a gg who used a strap-on or a dildo and topped you before seeing a ts? How was that?

It will take you some time to get use to us my love when I star topping I was the same it would also hurt my dick if I made it to get it inn, but mainly it just wont get up no matter how many times I tryed to get it hard..

So just be patient
But Tryin a strap on with a GG will be a good idea but the pain is bigger maybe try a gay guy dressing up as a girl or a crossdreser girl...
...maybe you got to try a TS that have a big hole LOL.
Now if your dick is that big then any ass you fuck will be tight for your dick and you will be better off with an overweigh girl I hear they have bigger and deeper holes.
Kisses all over darling
India Fox.

i guess the fantasy that turns me on is secretly visiting girls in their hotels rooms and paying them. is that messed up? i have no trouble meeting girls that will sleep with me in the first or by the 3rd date but theres something about visiting working girls. hmm ive never said this out loud.
and u r right, there is another sexual activity i enjoy, and that oral. with women or ts's. but i feel that if there is a girl in front of me willing to get fucked i should do it, but like i said i dont really care for it.

Ok, here is my take....I do not know you and I am not inside your brain. What I can tell you is you may find ts girlz highly erotic and a turn on but many men look for a new rush.  This is not a slam on anyone but some men get very bored very fast and thats the root of the overall issue.   The way many get a new rush is to push themselves into trying new things.  Just like visiting gg's, that may have gotten old, so you moved to a more erotic, highly charged session with a TS.  I can relate to some extent.  The reason I have so much input here is in the past, a big turn on for me was to meet a new provider and have a rocking mind blowing session.  You blow through a bunch of providers that way because it takes allot to click on session number 1 with anyone.  A buddy and I once went to a city overseas where it was 100 percent legal to have as much sex as you wanted.  We would split up and meet back at the end of the night. What did he say...."Oh, I paid triple and was with "xxx" girl for 2 hours and it was great".  I said fuck that, I paid triple also and met 5 of the hottiest hotties here and it was amazing.  

I am not sure I have the remedy for you but I have a feeling this may be the cause of your recent frustration.....

Thoughts?

i think u both are right. i may be getting bored and feel the need to spice it up by seeing different providers. and  just my two cents i think u said it best with ur last two sentences, i am attracted to ts and i should do what i like and not do what i dont. its as simple as that i guess.