For t-girls: at what age did you feel like you were "different from all the other little boys" and had the feeling that you desired to dress as and live as a girl?

To be honest, I might have never been so aware of t-girls had not my across the street neighbor been one.  I will not use her name to not out her or myself, however,  this was about 30 years ago in New Jersey.  I was 17 and my neighbor was 21.  He was still a he at that time.  A very enfeminent boy who always preferred to make doll clothes and make flower arrangements as opposed to playing basketball, baseball or football like all of the other boys / guys in the neighborhood.  This person was the oldest child of four in a very devoute Christian family.  The parents were and are very conservative, of high morals and very family orientated.  Perhaps God has fun with us via giving such parents a child who was soooo gender identity confused.  This person was sent to many psychiatrists and ministers to really help sort out what was going on in his head.  I knew this person when he was going through all of this inner turmoil.  This person often hung out with a blantantly flaming gay guy.  Out siders never knew if they were a gay couple or what.  With in the next five years, this person went through the whole transition.  Lived as a pre op TS for the required years while under going the required therapy and counselling and then BAM, one day "he" was no longer "he" and now she was a post op transsexual.  This t-girl was always living in the here and now and was quite vivacious and alert.

At this time, Disco was the popular music and all the night clubs played it and people danced to it.  This "new" t-girl was a real slut on the dance floor!  I mean, she was making up for lost time.  She was now a woman, a hot woman and she was hot to trot.  Almost doing a burlesk show on the dance floor!!  Sorta strip teasing and lettin it all hang out (with out getting naked on the dance floor!)  She exuded sex and sensuality and she was good looking and very self confident strong minded.  She loved the attention good looking men showed her.  She was living for NOW.

Her family and all of her neighbors, including me, loved her and cared for her as good neighbors in a family orientated environment should.  Even my father, who was a big 6' 3" 300 lb+ macho tough guy, told me if she was his child, he would love her and care for her just the same.  God gives you children, you love them and help guide them in life.  It's as simple as that.

So that was my first awareness of transgendered women.  From then on, I read a lot about them and any opportunity I had to converse with one, I did.
I was always interested in knowing her past.  What led her to where she is today.  I would ask these questions, not in a way to make her feel uncomfortable, but in a way that most t-girls enjoyed.  I was opening them up to talk about them selves, while mixing it in with normal every day small talk.

Most all of my t-girl experiences are with the escort and dancer variety.  Indirectly over the years I have come across some who were not part of the sex industry too.  IMO, all t-girls are very interesting.  In the spiritual, I believe God created them as they are for a reason. (to draw close to Him)  In the physical, I believe it is as simple as a boy being born with a hormonal imbalance, or perhaps female type of brain, etc etc.

My experience has been that most women have drama in their life.  T-girls have the double whammy of drama.  I have never had a romantic or dating relationship with one, nor have I ever sought to.  There was one dancer who I felt so close to in every measurable way, I would have been open to it.  In a way though, thankfully, I stuck with the prime directive and just saw her often by the hour....

In a way, I am a typical John.  I have always hooked up with GG's and dabbled with t-girls on the side for many decades too.  I know of 100's of guys who dabble with t-girls too.  All see GG's too, many are married or have GG girlfriends and wifey or GF know nothing of his t-girl interest.  I know of some guys who have normal traditional relationships with a t-girl, but most guys I know just see t-girls on the side for a hook up for fetish fulfillment.

So what's your story?! Please share!

19 years old in 1966 and hanging out @ the drag clubs on the weekend was the cool place for all the 'James Dean" Rebels who wore black socks and defied all that was considered socially normal.

Though I had an early exposure to the TV/TS community I didn't pop my cherry until some years later when I managed a string of Adult books stores in Houston. A local girl came in one night and literally took me by the arm sleeve to a peep room in the back right when I was closing the store. That was around 1977. It wasn't a great experience, but did renew my interest. The first mind blowing, mystical experience came a few years later when I met a charming girl in Tampa and nearly married. We maintained a monogamous relationship for 2 years. One day she ran off with the milk man... well he was really a Dentist, but no matter.

Currently I had more non sexual friendships with Transgender girls than I do sexual relationships/encounters. I must getting old!

My story is kinda funny.  I grew up in a southern state and was raised by a very strict father.  When I turned 16, I was legal to drive and I was one horny but shy teenager.  One Friday night, pops gave me the keys to the 1980 diesel Delta 88 and I headed out on the town.  I was cruising down this area of town that had somewhat of a strip.  I see this hot girl in spandex waving.  I circle back around and its a hooker.  I was scared to death but let her in.  She's sucking my dick and I look down as her dress slides up.  I saw something growing. Totally freaked me out that it was a TS.  That was my firt experience and I did not visit any TS girls or have any interest for about ten years, then found it to be quite erotic if you click with the right one.

I'd heard of and actually worked with a TS. She was unfortunately an ugly man and made even uglier woman. By chance, I was in New Orleans in the mid 90's and visited a club with TS dancers. When I walked in, I was unaware this was a TS club. There was a beautiful girl dancing topless on stage. After her dance, I offered to buy her a drink and we ended up spending the rest of the evening together. Of course during the evening she told me she was a pre op. I found this very erotic and we ended up back at my hotel after she got off work. It was some of the best sex of my life.

Someday I'll write a book - but the short version.

I honestly don't know if I was born with a genetic defect or if my transexuality is a result of environmental experiences.

I don't remember telling my parents I was a girl.  But I was never into team sports and I preferred sex with males early in life.

I had sex with boys beginning when I was 11 and discovered some men like little boys when I was 13.  I tried having sex with a girl, as a boy when I was 14, but all I could think of was how bad I wished I looked like her and I felt totally out of place on top.

And what's really funny is she and I are still friends and her partner of many years is a TS woman.  Figure that one out...

I didn't know TS's existed until I was about 19 and in a strip bar in Ensenada, Mexico.  I was with three friends on an adventure (we later wrecked the car filled with pot). But that's another story for my book...

Anyway, we were watching this girl strip on stage,  guys were grabbing her ass and tucking dollar bills in her garter.  At the finale she rolled to the back of the stage turned around and whipped off her wig and bra.  And "she" was a he!

All the guys thought it was funny as hell - even the ones grabbing her ass.  I was just sitting there in shock thinking, "WOW, boys can be girls."

And that began a 20 year journey hiding myself from the world and a quest to find myself.  And finally about 3 1/2 years ago I let the butterfly out of the cocoon.

Hugs,
TS Jamie

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When I was in my mothers womb the doctor told my mother I was going to be a girl based on my heartrate. They never did an ultrasound or anything like that so my mother prepared accordingly.

There was a bit of a surprise when I was born and a lot of clothing returned to the store.

Anyways.  I have no memories of anything that makes me feel like my environment made me the way that I am so I feel like I was born with it. My earliest memories  of wanting to be a girl date back to when I was about 4 years old. I can very distinctly remember them pre-kindergarten.

My mom told me and my therapist this, about a year ago, after not talking to me for quite some time. Evidently doc said the same thing when I was a kid, same story girl clothes, picked out a girl name etc...

I started roleplaying Mary and Jesus (I liked being Mary is that fucking classic or what?). My mom used to try and blackmail me with a photo she took of me when I was 4 wearing nothing but her high heels and a bucket over my head out on our front lawn, she doesn't think its so cute now.

I was very influenced as a teenager by the book Refusing to Be a Man by John Stoltenberg (though I disagree with its anti-porn, poorly thought out feminism). Still it gave me the courage to resist a masculine identity that I knew was not me.
I  was very affectionate with my male friends in high school and was openly bi-sexual (some things don't change...)

started to seek hormone therapy around the same time I could buy a bottle of Whiskey (I swear the two aren't related).

That's my story. I really like hearing everyones experiences, especially mongers, cause its not something I've thought much about. Thanks for sharing everyone.

I grew up in a large Northern NJ city in a neighborhood comprised of many couples raising their young families.  This was in a time when divorce was a rarity and the committment of marriage had value.  I was born in 1960.  It was typical for parents to have 3 or 4 children back then.  There just happened to be almost all boys and only one girl in the neighborhood.  I can't vivdly remember our ages, but maybe like 8 or 9, many of us boys were. There was only one girl.  This neighborhood girl was like 11 and in our youthful inquizitiveness, she had the fortune or misfortune of being our patient as we played doctor.  Keep in mind, we did not do this all the time, but it was some thing we were interested in.  There must have been 6 or 7 boys in the neighborhood in this age category of about 8 or 9, maybe even a little younger. The specifics are not vivid, but I can recall we sucked on each others cocks.  I can remember even feeling a little "guilty" that I enjoyed sucking on other boys cocks more than having them suck on mine.  At that age, I thought it was supposed to be girls that enjoyed sucking on a cock and that perhaps it was not normal for me to prefer sucking one rather than having mine sucked.  I don't recall that we tried to hump each other, because I can't recall if our little pinga's got hard, but I don't think they would have at age 8 or 9.  I can specifically recall masturbating at age 11 and feeling the great feeling of climaxing, but no cum coming out.  I was too young to produce cum at that time.  My 1st sex was at the age of 13.  I did "it" with a 14 year old girl from across the street.  It was an OK experience.  I have never been sexually attracted to men or masculinity and never felt I was gay or even bi-sexual and still don't, but when I was like 17, there was a boy who enjoyed sucking my cock and having me fuck his ass.  We did this once or twice a week for many months.  I was always attracted to girls/women through out my life.

I observed the transition of man into woman in my across the street neighbor but it was not until my late 20's that I sought out to hook up with t-girl escorts.  Prior to that, I think i may have encountered at TS when getting BJ's from street walkers which were popular back then before the aids crisis.  I can recall picking up what I thought was a GG street walker and upon getting a BJ from her, feeling between her legs and thinking she possibly might be a pre-op TS and not a GG, letting her know it is cool to reveal herself.  It was at that time that i became facinated with seeing an erect cock on a woman.  i just HAD to suck on it.  It brought back youthful memories of childhood sucking on boys, rekindled thinking about my across the street neighbor who transgendered.  As this TS street walker sucked on my cock and I sucked on hers, I felt I was experiencing a perversity in life that most "regular" society was not aware of or could not appreciate.  I still did not seek out a TS escort, the street walker happened to be one, so I appreciated the situation.

Not until perhaps age 29 or 30 did I actively seek to hook up with t-girl escorts, mostly to rekindle childhood memories of my across the street M2F TS neighbor.  I would see these escorts and enjoy watching them undress and see their cock.  We would cuddle and mutually BJ each other and that was that.

As years drifted by i wanted to experience "her" more and more.  I desired for her to cum in my mouth.  All the while I still primarily saw genetic escorts and had GG GF's inbetween TS exploration.  More years drifted by.  I mentally dreamed of having an erect t-girl enter me, but it was more of a mental dream than one of actually enjoying it physically.  Not until more recent years would I use smaller and larger dildos in my ass prior to seeing a t-girl escort for a hook up.  I wanted my ass to be prepared so that she could fuck my ass with rhythem and depth and i'd still be comfortable with it.  This level of t-girl hook up is still relatively new to me.  It is something I want to experience as a complete in depth hooking up with a t-girl experience.  I have a local GFE / PSE hot babe t-girl with a 5" cut hard as a rock cock that cums ATF t-girl that I do this with.  However, the dog in me seeks a new t-girl to experience this with too.  Problem is this hot TS I see is a bargain hook up at 100 and she is a hot date.  Some other t-girls might be less of a GFE / PSE and much more $$$

This is a fun and meaningful fetish desire and it is interesting to see how Johns and t-girls got to where they currently are. So what's YOUR story?!

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my story
i was working back east, i was in my early 20's and thought i was pretty enlightened. There was this gorgeous manager of the hotel where my company was staying. Every straight guy hit on her, she turned them all down so i was pretty nervous. Eventually i got up the courage to ask her out & she said yes. She was forbidden to date guests so meeting her was like something out of a spy novel. We hit so many bars & restaurants while she kept asking me questions that i really did not understand. Finally she was border line bombed and got pretty bold, the questions turned graphic"have u ever sucked cock, why not?" etc etc then she grabbed me to slowdance and we basically dry fucked on the dance floor, she excused herself, went to the bathroom, came back and took me out on the floor again. This time she ground much more slowly while looking me straight in the eye, the next thing i know there was a rock hard cock rubbing hard against mine.
"Do you like that?" she asked
"OMG I love it" i couldn't believe what i was saying. she grabbed her purse and we literally ran to her car, we could not even make it that far though, we stopped halfway got hot and heavy up against another car. we worked our way across the parking lot, stopping every few cars to kiss and dry fuck and jerk each others cock, licking the precum off each others fingers...
god that was so hot, something about us being so attracted to each other that we didn't care who saw us.
the best way to be initiated, total surprise

I was just getting back from a job out of state and stopped by a AD book store, and bought a copy of what at that time was the LA Freepress,,OK so it dates me,,but as I looked through the adds I saw a beautiful lady named Barbi, since retired, and I had to call her. She was very nice, a CD as few had implants at that time, but was incredibly beautful and passable, short petite and very accomadating. She took the time to talk and let me know about her, and wanted to know about me, and then she led me through and taught me the ritual of making love to sexy T-Ladies.I talk to her occasionaly and she approves of this tale.

Interesting that you refer to TS admirers/supporters as 'Johns'. I'm not a 'John' so please don't box all of us into a limited dynamic.  Most of my TS 'girlfriends' are just that......very good friends. No money changes hands.