Transsexual
Yes it's so sad, my parent always knew I'm different, but they never asked, I have not seen my parents for almost 8 years until they passed away last year, they never seen me how i looked like now. I was so scare to show them because I did not want to disappoint them since they were really religious! But I'm sure my Mom and Dad in heaven knows by now that this is the real me, and they would be happy if I'm happy, that's all that matter for the parents who love their child!
Last week I was talking to my sisters and brother thru skype, I tried to hide my look by wearing hat and i had to draw my eyebrow very thick. But I can't fool them, my sister told me I always act and looked like a girl since i was 5 yo,and she made me a girl dress and skirt, then she told me i changed when I was in high school, I became " manly". So she asked me why am I look like a girl and act like a girl now.
I said because when i was in high school I decided to act like a man so people would stop harrassing me and abuse me, i also told my sister that whenever people abused me, threw me with a rock and came home bleeding it was not an accident, it's because the boys called me faggot all the time, they hated seeing me on the street and they would punched me in the face, slashed me with a razor on my fingers, it was happening all my childhood, if I wasn't that strong, I would be dead by now!
They could not believe that was what happened, but they still believe that if I come home to my country, they would make me a real man, cut my hair, nails and force me to get married with a woman, she said what I'm doing now is sinful and will not be forgiven.
I told my sisters I cannot get hard with a woman, I tried it before when i was in high school with 3 gf's, but i couldn't, it's in the brain!
My family are closed minded people and never travel, so they stuck with their mind, they told me they love me, but they disagree with who I'm now and they very disappointed. I told them to pretend that I'm not exist anymore, because I'm being who I'm, I don't need their approval, I just want them to understand that this is not my choice, I did not choose to be harassed and discriminate, I choose to be myself.
They also told me that, they would be embarrassed to see me if I'm going home and be seen by neighbor...( I guess they never seen me in person ). I told them I'm beautiful, no one can tell, and you should be proud cos I look better than all my sisters...LOL
Well, after that conversation, my sisters never contact me again which is fine with me, it will take time for them to understand and to accept me. My fear was to lost my parents, but those fear are over now, so I don't have anymore fear in life!
And Tia Phoenixx my dear 
, I would like to respond to this thread a while ago, but I just have too much horrible memory. Everytime I read about this kinda stuff, my stomach got sick, i always try to avoid since I'm living in the US by myself, I have no family, no support, so I have to protect myself and survive by making me myself happy and strong.....
Life is tough, but life also short, so just have fun and take care of ourself, you got no second chance..
Thank You...Good Night !
Last week I was talking to my sisters and brother thru skype, I tried to hide my look by wearing hat and i had to draw my eyebrow very thick. But I can't fool them, my sister told me I always act and looked like a girl since i was 5 yo,and she made me a girl dress and skirt, then she told me i changed when I was in high school, I became " manly". So she asked me why am I look like a girl and act like a girl now.
I said because when i was in high school I decided to act like a man so people would stop harrassing me and abuse me, i also told my sister that whenever people abused me, threw me with a rock and came home bleeding it was not an accident, it's because the boys called me faggot all the time, they hated seeing me on the street and they would punched me in the face, slashed me with a razor on my fingers, it was happening all my childhood, if I wasn't that strong, I would be dead by now!
They could not believe that was what happened, but they still believe that if I come home to my country, they would make me a real man, cut my hair, nails and force me to get married with a woman, she said what I'm doing now is sinful and will not be forgiven.
I told my sisters I cannot get hard with a woman, I tried it before when i was in high school with 3 gf's, but i couldn't, it's in the brain!
My family are closed minded people and never travel, so they stuck with their mind, they told me they love me, but they disagree with who I'm now and they very disappointed. I told them to pretend that I'm not exist anymore, because I'm being who I'm, I don't need their approval, I just want them to understand that this is not my choice, I did not choose to be harassed and discriminate, I choose to be myself.
They also told me that, they would be embarrassed to see me if I'm going home and be seen by neighbor...( I guess they never seen me in person ). I told them I'm beautiful, no one can tell, and you should be proud cos I look better than all my sisters...LOL
Well, after that conversation, my sisters never contact me again which is fine with me, it will take time for them to understand and to accept me. My fear was to lost my parents, but those fear are over now, so I don't have anymore fear in life!
And Tia Phoenixx my dear
, I would like to respond to this thread a while ago, but I just have too much horrible memory. Everytime I read about this kinda stuff, my stomach got sick, i always try to avoid since I'm living in the US by myself, I have no family, no support, so I have to protect myself and survive by making me myself happy and strong.....Life is tough, but life also short, so just have fun and take care of ourself, you got no second chance..
Thank You...Good Night !
am up for a latsdog sandwich papi hehehe
besos guerito 
India Fox.
Yea I know my humor is a bit out there and sometimes hard to grasp but oh well?
I understand you very well sister.
I pass by a very similar experience since I was very lil all the way trough hight school...being beat up by the bullies around me.
But when I got my implants I talked to my mother and she was looking at the floor not at me, and so I did.
but finally we got the courage to look at each other and she acepted me the way that I am and now she even buy me cosmetics and female cloths and help me choose my earrings or cloths when we go out shoppings
My family is very religious as well, my mom still goes to church everyday.
just enjoy your life as much as you can mama and dont worry aboout your brothers, they will understand you and love you sooner or later
and keep in touch girl dont get lost.
India Fox.
Thankyou for the link