Authenticity or fantasy, what am I selling? More importantly, what are people buying? There's a disappointment in a man's voice when I won't play ball. Understandably, he doesn't care that I am not thing for which he is hunting, and he scurries away already forgetting my name. But the men that are hunting for me in particular, sometimes can't believe they've found me. Their tone grows in astonishment as my authenticity persists.
Myself and the myriad of providers exist in the same market, a market of intentional contradictions. Crisscrossed fantasy masked as authenticity and authenticity parading around as fantasy, every hunter fending for themself, trying to suss out which fellow hunter is carrying the bullets to their specific gun.
I am performing to a degree, just as I would perform kindness to cute waiter taking my order. There's a protocol, but he's genuinely cute and I'm genuinely charmed. But I want him to know I like him regardless of how I'm feeling that day. It's my best self that I'm performing.
But those are just the niceties. How do convey a Girlfriend when things are awkward or complicated? It's my job to care about the social comfort of a stanger. Am I acting? Do I really care? All I know is in that moment I care. It taps into my caretaker and I genuinely want this stranger to enjoy themself.
If I'm acting, it's method acting. Because in the moment I am there with him, and I care for nothing but him. He is my world. Method acting can actually be quite hard to differentiate from a skilled classical actor to an observer. But to the participants, it's night and day.
Maybe I'm just romanticizing the chemistry I have with some clients. But I seems significant to me. What do you think? Are there discernable approaches to companionship that appeal differently to different people?