First let me say that I love this board!  I can't tell you how happy I was to find a place where others share my erotic interests in tgirls.  I have been lurking for quite some time and enjoy the many interesting discussions (both political and offbeat).  

I wanted to ask a real honest question to those who have been seeing tgirl providers for while.  How was your first time?  Obviously with the riskiness of the bizness did you find any sense of remorse or anxiety after your first time?  

I ask because I seem to be a mess and I think I am one of those admmirers who are probably best at leaving this tgirl obsession as a fantasy and not as reality.  Recently I finally hooked up w/ a tgirl.  It wasn't for $ we just exchanged pics over the internet, talked on the phone and we hit it off very well.  She was hot and thought I was too and so we decided to meet just 4 fun late at night.  I went over...we kissed heavily, fondled, grinded, she gave me a bbbj (just for a few moments), we put on the jimmys and I worked her...she tried to work me but I was too tight....so I worked her...no tears in condoms or nothing.  Things seemed pretty safe.  In fact right by the bed she had a big paper bag of comdoms.  Good sign I guess that she is safe.  She looked clean and was clean...in fact she complained I was too messy when I spilled the lube on the bed...first time jitters I guess  

Anyway to my point.....I kissed her goodbye and went on my way but now my mind is just totally fucking with me.  I keep going over and over in my head as to whether I was safe "enough".  What were my risk chances, I've been overly worried about this.  I guess I am not ready for this yet..but I am curious if there are others that have shared this type of stress after their first time?  Do you think my situation is risky given what I told you?

Would love to get all your thoughts.  Of course I know most of you would say get tested to ease the mind and I will but damn I just get all sick to my stomach even thinking about the potential results.  Agh yes I know...WHAT A WUSS!  LOL.  

Hey thanks for the replys ahead of time.