Now this is interesting - and I think I'm finding a pattern. I recently basked in the pulchritude of a young lovely traveling provider in her late 20's...bodacious tata and all. The physical experience was average to good, but I seemed to have experienced sensory overload from this woman's looks. OMG was she gorgeous - and she liked to be spanked. I liked dat! A first experience for moi.
She offered me to see her again by telling me her departure date. I trust that was to maximize her booty. Now do I seem to want to see her again because she's so friggin gorgeous, but I think I'm barking up the wrong tree - so I probably won't - not at least until she returns again whenever that may be. I'm trying to keep my boundaries.
Contrary to a previous post, I saw another provider recently who DID cause my eyeballs to fall out. It was an OUTSTANDING experience with complete sensory overload but for very different reasons. She was older, had the bod of a 20 year old, was attractive, but I seem to want to see her again for very different reasons (repeat performance = YES).
The common denominator seems to be looks and age. Maybe I am just experiencing the blush of being around a beautiful, young vivacious woman. But I seem to be fixated and keep thinking to myself "I wish I were her boyfriend, OMG" even though I know this is illusion. But then again, maybe I want to be Donald Trump (lol)!! Maybe I too want a trophy wife??? Maybe this is my yearning to be half my age again, even though I wouldn't trade my position in life now for anything. Maybe I should just avoid beautiful blonde women, my Achille's Heel (= HELL NO)?
Let me say this in case you're wondering, I am having fun. But I am finding this to be a very interesting, yet perplexing schism.
Please survey my "id" and re-attach my (big) head for me LG.
I'm not in the business of attaching...rather separating, LOL. And in this case, I'm separating putative fact from fiction. I wouldn't spend too much time dwelling on this "perplexing schism." In paying for sexual activities with a variety of commercial sex workers, you are enjoying the process as much as your wallet can handle.
I believe that many men relate to their own preferences of attraction as some sort of formula, and when reality begins to defy that logic, they get "perplexed." They can become mystified by their own preferences, so to speak. Yes, it's possible to become very attracted to all sorts of women. And, because it's new and perhaps mysterious, different, unusual from the regular formula, many men start dreaming of becoming xyz's boyfriend. It's not abnormal in the least, it's evolution at work...regardless of age. You see new attractive potential for mating and you want to go at it. Simple as that. Of course, with age comes a preference for brains too, not just beauty. But as you put it - you are "trying to keep my boundaries." Good for you! That's a sign of maturity. The big head overrules the small one, bravo.
Other than that, be happy that you still can get hopped up about someone and that you're not as jaded as....Donald Trump?
Referring to the object of my desire as a "commercial sex worker" has a very sobering effect, LG. How dare you do that (LMAOROTF)? There's a certain irony in that statement but it's also very, very funny. Thank you, that was good for me.
And I think to my sexual id, I do see an opportunity for mating and I DEFINITELY do want to go at it. I guess I just don't understand why I see this as more "fertile ground" than another. It seems this "commercial sex worker" has just triggered some sort of primal instinct to spread the genome and create a bunch of lil BigSplooges. Call it the "BigSplooge Genome Project". God I love primal insticts. I just have a hard time understanding how they surface?
The more I reflect, the more it's physical attraction, I think. You're right, the babe was a bit loquacious, somewhat of a ditz, and I really didn't care for what was under the hood, so to speak. I was more interested in the body of a Maserati. I think I just wanted to *drive* her a bit longer (and spank her a bit more too) until the focus of my attention is diverted someplace else - as I am certain it will.
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