Dear karmaexpress,
As we have concluded on this board so many times, sexuality is a many-splendored thing. The topic of "trannie-lovers" is an interesting one; just recently, Cathy Reback, PhD, came out with an in-depth study of some such individuals here in Los Angeles.
It appears that for many, it is clearly NOT a "homosexual experience." It is one of novelty, phantasy and preference. Having sex with someone who, in the eyes of the beholder, looks like a woman but has a penis, could be very exciting.
Having sex with a post-op transsexual is very much like having sex with a female-born female, particularly if the gender-confirming surgery was done well and the patient was able to obtain excellent vaginal depth, about 6 inches or so.
One this is absolutely certain: the gay community has zero to do with the transsexual community, other than both have been, and continue to be, members of marginalized groups. A gay male is MALE. He has no intention to become a woman. Even someone like RuPaul, a very public drag queen is just that - a drag performer who has no intention of obtaining a vagina, a female identity and living as a female. Please do not confuse such a male with someone who has a brain syndrome signaling discomfort with the male gender.
Your problem in this case, karmaexpress, is that you confuse gender with sexual orientation. You are not alone in this case Many people have not made the separation in their minds, simply because they just assume that if you want to be female, you must be gay.
Far from it: fully one third of all men who transition and become female are lesbians. I have seen it imy practice, and other practitioners confirm it as well. This means, that even after they transition, they still prefer women sexually. I have also encountered women who transition and become males - gay males.
Hence, gender identity has nothing to do with sexual orientation. As to those who love to fellate a preop transsexual female, well, there are a variety of issues that come into play. This still doesn't mean that such individuals are homosexual. If they were, they would prefer fellating someone who looks 100% male.
Just like there are bi-gendered individuals in this world, there are also bi-sexual people. But those who love women with penises are in a category of their own. As to your being unsure about having sex with a potentially previous male, it's all about how you view masculinity and femininity. If it's in the chromosomes, then yes, that can't be changed. But just for you to know, there are women out there who look 100% female and who have a Y chromosome. Testicular feminization. I can think of a very famous actress and a now-deceased former Persian Empress who suffered from this condition. These women cannot give birth and they have to take medications for their condition. And yes, post-op transsexuals may have lived part of their lives as "unoperated males." But if they look extremely female, chances are that their experience as males was a very strange one, and that clearly, they were intended to be female from the start.
We have found brain differences in transsexuals vs non-transsexual males. What we haven't found, is what goes awry in the process of gestation. I think you'll need to clearly separate transsexualism from homosexuality, because they are truly apples and oranges.
As for that "100,000 years of being weirded out," I don't think it's going to disappear any time soon. Heterosexual males are hardwired to shrink from same-sex attraction. Study after study confirms this. Women, on the other hand, are not so extreme in their orientation. A recent study exposed heterosexual males and females to a variety of pornographic films, depicting male-male, girl-girl and male-female interaction. Results showed that the male study subjects had zero arousal when viewing the male-male material, whereas the female subjects were equally aroused by all the possible combinations. The researchers then took this to mean that females are more fluid in their ability to be aroused by same gender sex.
As to Cathy Reback's study, the men interviewed clearly stated that they were not "homosexual" in the least, but that "chicks with dicks" held a special appeal. It's probably best to accept that there is someone for everyone and that as long as no one gets hurt or abused and participates willingly, it's good that we have such variety in this world.
I continue to be amazed,
the Love Goddess