I would still sneak around the way I do now and keep that part of my life to myself.

You still have to choose and hunt down the right provider, sift through reviews, websites, photos, etc.

I'm NOT gonna miss it

The only aspect I find addictive is the board activity.

Some of IT is very titillating

But, I'd rather make new secrets,and less. They become more intimate and much needed!!

because it's not so much the illegality that we seek to run from, but the social stigma.

For example, we speed and get pulled over and what do we do with the ticket?  We wave it around to people to ellicit sympathy.  Even though speeding is more dangerous and anti-social in a variety of ways, society takes a "boys will be boys" approach to it.

On the other hand if we get nabbed for P4P and our photos and names appear in the paper, you'll likely to end up in divorce court and maybe even get fired or demoted.

It sucks, but hey, that's what it is.

Oh for the life of a secret agent.

The fantasy for me is pretending that a beautiful woman would be having sex with me if I wasn't paying her.  I can honestly do without the other necessary cloak and dagger aspects of P4P.

I wouldn't miss it because I don't know WTF you're talking about

My MOM knows I hobby, for fuck's sake!

I do what I want, who I want, and when I want.

I'm a totally selfish prick! EVERYBODY knows that! Hobby and civvie!

Fuck! You think I got this attitude because I was clandestine?

I was a self-absorbed asshole LONG before I got into this!

Shit!

extremely exciting! I would definitely miss it.

Even not including this little "hobby" I have always lived multiple simultaneous lives in order to advance beneficial (IMO) causes. That wouldn't change.

In fact, by comparison to the rest of my life, I find all that stuff related to the hobby to be downright unexciting and mundane. Not to mention largely ineffective against anyone actually looking.