When I started participating in this hobby about three years ago, I had absolutely no idea what kind of a wild, rollercoaster type of ride that I had gotten myself into, or how it would ultimately change my life.

 First, allow me to give you all a little background information. I grew up somewhat emotionally detacthed from my family. Now, don't get me wrong, they were very loving and always provided for me, but somehow I never felt that close to anyone. Throughout my teens and into early adulthood, I suffered many failed relationships with family, friends, and co-workers. What was especially troubling was my inability to keep a girlfriend for no more than about three months at most. I had dated many different women during those years, and each broke up with me within a very short amount of time.

 Then, in my early to mid-twenties, I decided to give up on civilian women for a while and concentrate on my own life, education, and career. It was during this time that I started to participate in this hobby. At first, it was my intention to just have great sex with gorgeous women, without any chance of commitment or mindgames involved. That I did, but little did I know what really went on in the hobbying community. By being involved in this and other message boards, I learned how to treat the ladies and have an enjoyable session. Something I never expected to happen was starting to develop. The almost anonymous interaction between client and provider gave me the opportunity to explore my thoughts, feelings, emotions, and  relationships with women in a totally different way.  But then, during each session, with each new lady I would enjoy the company and affection of, it kept teaching me more and more about myself. The experience of this provided me with some great insight; openminded, fair and honest commmunication without emotions getting in the way (most of the time), from a female perspective. I was really starting to care for these ladies rather than treat them like the sex objects I had thought of before.

 My point of view and opinions have changed profoundly about a lot of different issues in my life. In retrospect, I attribute much of this result, to the hobby community teaching one how to interact with other people, and the wonderful providers that engaged in countless hours of pillowtalk with me. This hobby has affected me to the point that I am now involved in a great relationship with a girlfriend for the past six months. My commitment to family and friends has improved tremendously; I'm closer to my parents now than ever before.

 So, to my fellow hobbyists, and especially the ladies that hepled me through this time in my life, I wish to take this moment to extend my deepest and most heartfelt gratitude to you. And for all the ladies out there that have difficulty at times being in this complex business, let me assure you that you are doing something very worthwhile and desperately needed by us, and you are indeed appreciated even if we don't show it on the surface. The providers that I have had the chance to meet impacted my life in a way that they may never have quite known about. You have made a difference in my life that I cannot even begin to understand yet, nor can I possibly give back in return what you have given to me.  You see, I learned how to live a life with kindness, affection and compassion. I learned how to interact in a community and in relationships. I learned how to be confident and secure with myself, while being open and vulnerable to those important to me. I learned how to laugh, even at myself.       ...what I learned most of all, I learned how to love.

 As I sit here and reflect upon the emotions I've gone through over the past three years of hobbying, all the highs and lows, I almost want to cry for the first time in many years.

  Thanks for your time spent reading and allowing me to share, no reply is necessary, as you have already given me so much.
  Thank you, with my deepest appreciation,
   anonymous hobbyist