This is the 4th version of the original post that finally got through. The other 3 sucked worse that this. Version 1 was we were having sex while I was posting! BTW, you should know not to believe any of my bullshit by now!

...If you don't reconsider your 90 day waiting period.  

hoping Hooktard can refloat my boat. If anyone can....

I've been to the razors edge more times than I can count. I died once.

It shakit shakes me up for split second then I realize it means I should say a prayer for him and then I realize that you cannot be sad over things you have to just keep in mind that we are all going to die someday and that there is nothing sad about it.
just the way his face looks when he was laying in the casket as I know it sounds extra him its a vision that even three years later on a daily basis it flashes in my mind
tonight on the Grammys they sang a song Ringo Starr sang the song about the photograph.
and it definitely made me think of my father
I learned how quick people can go because my father got diagnosed with flu carriage disease and lung cancer at the same time and within 12 months he was gone that fast.
and to make it more tragic I unfortunately was in prison when I found out his diagnosis as well as in prison for his wake
I suppose I may have the vision of his face everyday because it may have been a little bit more trying for me because I was in handcuffs and had to police escort with me when I went to his funeral in South Boston
and unfortunately I didn't get to hug and a family because they have you go in the day before your families there when the funeral how is empty.
that's a good reminder but people like me I already live my life like that I've already had my scares.
or my reminders of how precious life is
and how fast it can be ripped away from you
to make matters worse that you're my father died when I was away in prison my uncle also died of a tragic accident instantly and then one of my cousins overdose on cocaine
VI a needle
and unfortunately his daughter my cousin was in prison with me and she just like me had to go to our fathers wake in handcuffs it was quite the family reunion
I am glad you had a brush with death and you are now living your life more fuller because of it
always remember
pain is weakness leaving the bod