While I do think there can be a genuine connection and chemistry, at the end of the day this is just an illusion and business transaction. At least that's what I keep trying to tell myself. I know the "you're so big, so handsome, fuck me so goods" she says to probably every guy. God knows I've heard it from countless women. The intimate texts and conversation I'm not so sure about. I've never been in a healthy relationship, so I'm probably at least somewhat stunted and inexperienced with that. Anyways, I had an amazing time with an amazing woman the other day. One of the few times I've been on a second date, even fewer times I've been out in public, and the longest I've spent with a provider that we were awake. I've done a couple overnights, but basically spent maybe 2 or 3 hours together than slept. I would love to do a third date with her, I don't know when, but I'm a little worried. Not that I'll do something stupid or whatever, but that I'll be a mess after. I seem to be the type to fall fast and hard. At the same time I have trouble telling if it's actually feelings or just like lust or something. Not just for this girl, pretty much any girl I spend a decent amount of time with and connect with, civvie or provider. Maybe I'm just an idiot. This was probably more of a vent than a question, but I guess should I try and see her again? Or call it quits? At this point I'm done hobbying except MAYYBEEE a couple "dream" girls if things align. I need to get serious about some life choices.

"Maybe I'm just an idiot?" Well, that's a bit harsh. But you really are cruising for an "I've fallen for a hooker and I can't get up" scenario. You are looking for a real relationship with people whose business is creating an illusion for you and you seem desperate to make it real.
If so, then this is probably not a "hobby" you should have.
What amazes me is, based on your reviews, you've been at this for five years and still haven't got it figured out.
Good luck on finding something else to do with your time and money.

Do you think she will say yes if you ask her on an unpaid date?  

 
Do you REALLY think she will say yes?  

 
Hint: She will NOT say yes.  

 
And there is your answer. Illusion - 1, Reality - 0.  

 
Life is good

 
The Cat

That's a big reason why I've only seen the majority of the girls I've seen once. Even ones I've really liked. My job doesn't really allow for traditional dating, so I do this more for the company than to get my rocks off. Hence why I want to stop. So I can finish school and get a job that does allow for a normal dating life. Whether I can actually approach women is another story lol but at least I'd have the opportunity.

I'm in the same category. I start to get attached whenever I spend time with a woman who "likes" me. I've never done the provider thing and just got into a relationship with an SB that is not paid. Actual GF.

I get those feelings too and the pangs in the stomach when I don't hear from them or I have to text. That's just the way we  are. Don't feel bad, but still use common sense and don't get taken advantage of. My problem is it's a physical feeling. In my head I could give two shits, but my body says otherwise.

I figured if I'm single again I'll just do the Thailand thing that way there's endless variety and I won't get attached. Meaning no on in my back yard to fawn over.

END OF MESSAGE

rather than something you did't.

 
So, what the hell, go for it.   I did, and things worked out pretty well.

Do yourself a favor Luv.....  There shall be "dangerous curves ahead"
for you if you continue to "live the fantasy".

 
I encourage you to learn "mental compartmentalization" whilst  
hiring Providers.    

 
This technique will greatly afford a gent like yourself,  whom states  
 "I seem to be the type to fall fast and hard."

 
Unfortunately, I had to learn this  technique at a very early age.
However, I digress.....

 
As a Provider, I compartmentalize my "work life", from my personal life,  
and from all of the other facets of my being.

 
For example....  I've told myself   "sex is just sex"....  "it isn't love".
(Nor quite frankly do I care about "being in love" these days anyway.)

 
No matter how great the tryst,  and the single or {married} Client's technique,  
personality, looks, and  whatever,....  He's a Client and I'm the "Transaction".

 
I became a Provider for many reasons, one of which, was I enjoy sex, making
others feel good and I have bills to pay!

 
If you love having sex with Providers, then face the reality very quickly,
"the sex and the accouterments are just a  service which is part of our job description",
nothing more.

 
Sure, I say things in-the-heat-of-passion, as do most of us.
I'm saying them because I mean it in the throes of pleasure.    

 
However, out-of-the-boudoir,  I revert to the compartmentalized "me" whom is indeed  
genuine with my thoughts and communication, though I am not  "the Provider me".

 
xo Angelina Jones

Human emotions are what they are.  One can rationalize them, deny them, try to ignore them, but we are who we are.  Absolutely nothing wrong with thinking time spent with a provider is a genuine connection.  Often times it is.  Bask in those successful chemistry experiments.  I like to think of this hobby as falling in love one hour at a time.  And lots of times I go back to fall in love with the same gal all over again and again.        

The only cure I know for a girl is more girls. Don't see the same ones. Diversify.

Hello,
I'm not discounting in the least that "time spent with a provider is a genuine connection."

 
Indeed, it is a connection that is unlike any other.    

However, I simply stated to the 0P,  (whom said "he falls hard") though it may be a real  
connection, do himself a favor and attempt to separate fantasy from reality.

There's nothing more satisfying than providing a lovely connection, where both the
Client and Provider, enjoy it enough to revisit it again.

Warm Regards,
Angelina Jones

And yes of course a connection can be had, we are all human especially if on an intimate level. However, just always be cognizant of where you are especially if diving into this world.  

I had a gentleman on a 2nd date tell me he was in love with me...thru me off a bit personally being so sudden and shocked me a bit quite honestly, especially when he'd seen 3 other girls that week lol. Unfortunately, I couldn't see him again because of it. Just enjoy your time and keep it light and fun...save the heavy stuff for "the one" when you're ready, that's what I'd advise. Good luck

I've seen 3 out of idk how many girls more than once. 2 out of the 3, we got along well enough, but mostly just saw again because I knew what to expect.

I really don't see this going anywhere regardless of things. I'm not holding my breath that our schedules would align again, she was touring both times I saw her. Not like I can compete with the exotic fmtys and expensive gifts either. I sure know how to pick them lol