Idk if it's just me but I feel like I'm never fully satisfied. I keep searching for the perfect provider but no one scratches that itch, I'll see multiple girls a week and most leave me feeling bored and unsatisfied if I'm being honest but I'll never tell them that cause I don't like putting others down so I'll pretend it was great. I can't enjoy it unless heavily on substances. I do have ragular ladies I see who are sweet and I enjoy their company but it still feels like something is always missing. I just feel like it's a never ending search, I chose this lifestyle to avoid the drama, and effort and searching for the perfect one just to do the same thing I thought I opted out of.

Your experiences are all transactional. If you have to abuse substances you're doing it all wrong. You should be able to enjoy this hobby life sober and still have a blast. Maybe it's you & not the providers.

Yep---It's You..........................................................!