When you develop the ability to respond to music, maybe you'll br able to enjoy some of these other aspects of life. You may even, to some small degree, find it possible to respect women as something other than animals. YMMV

The whole act is weird. I wish I didn't have to do it. I want to break and escape escape fom this cycle.

(paraphrasing)

What earthly reason is there for people getting excited about agitating a sack of gas?

Like the saying goes:  If you have to ask the question, then you'll never get it.

Well if you're being repetitive that's your problem

No wonder you're disappointed, I would be too!

But its premise only holds true if you have no sensation in your cock, or don't enjoy repeating things that feel good.  But perhaps you are dead below the waist as well as above the neck.