I'm afraid that some how the secret of my future past, turning to a provider for any reason what so ever, will catch up with me even when I have not indulged in years. I have friends who have done it once, another who's brother does it a lot and has for years etc. Being on these boards shows me that I am not alone and its been done/being done more than anyone would like to admit. My closest friends know I have done it [some wish that they could], but they believe I did it on my birthday sometimes, or used too. They didnt really care. Only a handful of my closest friends know about it.  

Then keep your mouth shut about it.

Everybody has a secret, and I hate having secrets in LTR's. Drives me nuts

whether you're paying for it or you're an escort.

who you trust and who you tell. The ONLY person who knows that doesn't do this is the ONLY person/friend who stuck with me before, during, and after the most difficult times in my life.

Every one night stand, every friend that you are still friends with that you slept with. The past is the past. I think not questioning every thing about your past comes trust, with getting older and having relationships. Realizing everyone has baggage and made some mistakes.  
     My wife and I werent talking about specifics one day and she mentioned she didnt even know her number. She said it was between 13-14 but wasnt sure. I was surprised because I know my number and always will, i thought women put more value in that information as well. That being said just that could have been a reason for me to move on when I was younger. Now its still a surprise but not something I d worry about.  
      There are things that maybe being truthful about is not a good idea. I have a pretty good male friend who was molested at 12. He had never talked about it but confessed to his wife of 12 yrs and she basically left him after words. He went through a very hard time and regrets ever bring it up. Some things are better left unsaid and once you say them its to late. Jmho.  

Courtney.  You're a sweet lady.  A good soul who deserves happiness, in whatever form it takes.  So PLEASE do not let this scenario you imagine, potentially realistic as it may be, create a frame around a LTR life you can imagine.    

...you really don't know how 'good' someone is until you've known them for a while.

I agree with you, there are some things left unsaid. There are times that the truth causes more harm than good. And people just seem not to have the scope to think outside societal norms, however prudish, and point fingers. Not a biblical person but he/she who casts the first stone etc.

There was a period of about a year and a half when my wife and I were split up when we were still dating. My ex saw a lot of guys. She kept telling me they were just friends, but I knew otherwise. Even though I knew almost for a fact that she was having sex with a lot of guys, I believed what she said because I loved her and wanted to believe it. When the truth finally came out, it hurt not because of the guys, but because she admitted she lied. She knew I wouldn't marry her if I'd known the truth (even though I did).

Half the fun of doing this is talking to my best friends about it. We compare experiences and sometimes share recommendations. Some of them do it and some don't, for a variety of reasons. Those that don't wish they did. It makes for great conversation as long as everyone keeps their mouth shut. Some of our SOs are friends with each other which could be a problem but so far so good. Not something I'm worried about. I just want more variety than I can get in my civi life. Love to experience the many cute and sexy young ladies available without all the complications that come with the chase!

Dear Courtney:
When you got into the business as an Adult Companionship Provider, what where the social,professional and psychological consequences did you consider? I am wondering do you have a circle of friends that would work in the business and if so how did they approach this with respect to their personal lives and when did they disclose their different vocation to others? Where they ready for the ramifications and consequences that were by products of the disclosure and who could they confide in? Also would you say that you also have the same conundrums when it would come to having a civilian relationship while being active in the hobby or do you look to certain types of psychological profiles in the potential men that you would date because of the nature and scope of the business or would you choose to be alone so that you won't have to deal with the fall out and suspicion of your mate?  All real choices and questions I am sure that you have entertained at one point or another>

I don't recommend having a joint bank account under any circumstances.  

...thought the psychological ramifications and consequences would be worse. But, quite honestly, are much better! I feel better than I have in my entire life.

and so it is with the hobby.

The hobby ended my married life in a sense when my wife found out and divorced me; but in another sense, the marriage was over except in name, as she did not like me, nor I her.  Despite the fact that I dreaded the thought of divorce, and the expense in terms of money and emotions is quite great, it was well worth it as I've been very happy ever since, and you can't put a price on freedom.

But still, if the thought of the repercussions of being caught cause you so much grief that you don't enjoy the hobbying, then it is not for you.

Why pay money to be miserable, after all?

y cousin. And it is a great source of comfort that we can share stories. There are others I would like to turn on to this world but am not taking that chance. Way too much to lose.

"great source of comfort"...WTF does that mean??
Your a grown man, aren't you???

You're right Courtney.

Another fun part of doing this is when I see guys in the bar with their fat and average looking girlfriends and I know that I only have sex with women that look like they need to be on the cover of Maxim.

The quality of men that high-caliber providers such as yourself meet are a networkers dream.  I bet you have a rolodex of men who are very good people to know professionally.  Think about this if you ever decide to get out of this business and are looking to fulfill your goals.

And you are a well known asswipe and predator. Just ask Angel.

Is that high volume?

Ok, I did and she said i'm not. Is that "comforting" for you also.

thank you

In fact, it gives me great comfort because no one can out me.  I'm not married and virtually everyone I know is aware of how I play.  Just saw a cousin I hadn't seen in years who asked me if I was dating.  I told him no way, "I rent."  He replied, "I can dig it."  My kid called me to wish me a happy birthday early this year, knowing I was in Vegas.  "Guess how I'm celebrating," I asked him.  "I've got a date tonight with two Model Mayhem girls."
All he said was, "Go Dad!"
The rest of my friends love to hear my tales of the wild shit I've done.  Even some of their wives.  Hell, even my ex wife.
I understand most of you have to keep it hidden, but it's very liberating when you don't.  Ask Gambler and a few others.

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is if you do cocktail or dinner dates in public, it affects ladies who may not want to be outed, but you're potentially outing them since you're so open with everyone about paying for sex.

I am just wondering since you where on a date with this person how did you prepare in terms of research? Also where you ready to run with certain ideas and subject matter in a comprehensive and articulate manner so that you wouldn't raise any eyebrows? Finally did you dress in an extremely understated and conservative manner so that you could pass for a real estate agent or a tax attorney? These are just some key tips on how to keep them guessing while staying under the radar.

people who saw me with him knew I was an escort.

I've never told anyone that I do this and probably never will.  I just don't see the need to tell anyone.  The only people that I discuss the hobby with are providers and some guys on the boards.  I've heard guys that I work with use terminology that I didn't know before I started hobbying so I suspect that they do this but I still don't feel the need to share.

I told a friend of mine about what I do. So he wanted to meet my current Provider. Called my Provider and it was all good with her since I was one of her Regular Clients. My Friend was Nervous as he has never done this before. So I said, what the Heck, we'll do a Double with her. She was good with it. The Session was Awesome. My Provider Performed Flawlessly. Super Nice and did anything me and my Friend wanted. So I think I got him Hooked on the Hobby and my Provider.

Mine did and now who cares the people who know who you are before they knew and still know you are a decent person the ones who are all issues about it **** em xxx

I also tend to only spend my time with clients who apply in that context, because far too many hobbyists run their damn mouths about other providers during pillow talk. Sadly, they are usually the ones who write the most negative reviews too. No one in my real life knows the entire context of what I do, but yes some people know I am somehow involved in the ADULT entertainment industry...they just don't know specifics.

I play in one of the biggest cities in the world where there's virtually no chance of my running into anyone I know.  Especially since most of the people who know what I do don't live there. If that were to happen I wouldn't say anything about her being an escort.  They could probably figure that out for themselves, but they'd never be sure.

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