It makes me think back on many ladies I've seen and wonder what was really going on under the surface that I was allowed to see.
I want everyone to be happy in their selection of this profession and like to believe that they are. But reality suggests otherwise. There are so many sigmas attached to this. And it isn't just "society".
A lot of the psychological struggles with sex: who, when, how, can never be completely dealt with because IMHO they are not the same in each of us. So what fits one human can't feel the same for another. If this is the case, how can we ever feel truely free to enjoy our decision? How,when we feel strongly for someone and care how they feel and yet know that they don't, can't, or won't share our joy in our sexual decisions, do we ever feel free in that decision?
Just came back from a lousy and expensive dinner, and if you live in San Diego, you know this is the town for it!
In the thread Hushush started, I thought of something happened to me long ago, somewhat relevant. Since the forum is hot tonight, I will share it before I fall asleep here.
Logo ago, I visited a famous place in Northern California that these activities were completely legal. This was an extraordinary place those days, filled with truly beautiful women. If you have been there in 70s and 80s, you know what I mean.
As I entered the place, I saw this gorgeous curlish reddish-blonde woman, standing at 5'9", 140 lb, blue eyes, perfect legs and shapely, the textbook example of a Scandinavian beauty. As I approached her, she was all smiles, but then asked for a fee that was way outside of the normal range. Although I could afford it, I decided I wasn't going to be taken for a ride.
So I retreated to the bar. She turned down a lot of foreign tourists that I am sure would have paid her fees and more, walked towards me, and said she wanted to spend the time with me, for whatever fee I felt was appropriate. It turned out she was from Chicago, used to work for a high tech corporation, college educated, but recession had hit, she had lost her job, and there she was.
For the ensuing 7 months, I would fly up there to see her every 2-3 weeks. One winter evening, after skiing, I went to see her, and after we went to the room, she just burst into tears, and went on and on how humiliating this job was, how she felt she was being degraded, and the tears just wouldn’t stop. She had aged considerably over the span of the seven months, from a rose in full bloom, to a flaccid and pale flower. She was probably suicidal.
To make a long story short, I immediately arranged for her to leave the place, helped her to get back on track and she ultimately got her life back. In a visit a while later to the place she lives, we had a wonderful dinner, she was back in full bloom, gorgeous, restarting her career, and finally got married to a true gentleman and a doctor. Her secret has been forever safe with me, and that fateful night, I deciced I would be her friend, not lover. In a sailing trip off of key west, her husband once joked that when she see me, she acts like a kid at Christmas eve! This was very kind of him to say, and it was a reward I forever cherish deep in my heart.
Indeed, this business is not for everyone, and for all of those who participate in it, it is not always possible to check our humanity and conscientious at the door. Although we try!
your first sentence had me rolling - so true - altho I'm used to it now! LOL
Anyway, nice story, thanks.
Thanks so much for that sweet and touching story. That's all I wanted. Someone who understands that circumstances (job lay off, drugs and/or alcohol, etc) turns you into a provider, not some romantic "Pretty Woman" ideal of the industry. I didnt start out as a provder and I dont want to end up as a provider. I'm just a girl, trying to make it in the world. I want a husband, and a baby, and a house with the picket fence. I'm going to school in march to learn a skill for a career that I've always dreamed of and really love. While I developed a closeness with my regulars (obviously), "I" always understood what my role was. I never expected them to leave their wives and run off with me. I never expected to be included in their private lives. Hey, that was my job, to keep that privacy and confidentiality. So imagine my surprise when they wanted to invade "my" life? I was confused as to why it didnt work both ways. Why my life was less important than theirs.
Stranger in the night, actually you are my KNIGHT IN SHINING ARMOR. A sincere thanks to you.
hush hush
...that the hobby has something for everyone! Whatever floats your boat, man, (staying naughtily nautical), from the wham-bam-thank-ya-ma'am to the possbility of being The White Knight to the One True Princess, the possibilities are all there. I'm working on the latter scenario, sending discreet messages and electronic gift certificates to a presumably dead email pseudonym box, to someone who I know has moved on and moved away, whom I nonetheless miss dearly.
It makes me think back on many ladies I've seen and wonder what was really going on under the surface that I was allowed to see.
I want everyone to be happy in their selection of this profession and like to believe that they are. But reality suggests otherwise. There are so many sigmas attached to this. And it isn't just "society".
A lot of the psychological struggles with sex: who, when, how, can never be completely dealt with because IMHO they are not the same in each of us. So what fits one human can't feel the same for another. If this is the case, how can we ever feel truely free to enjoy our decision? How,when we feel strongly for someone and care how they feel and yet know that they don't, can't, or won't share our joy in our sexual decisions, do we ever feel free in that decision?
Isn't it wonderful when we really understand that the most important thing in life is to treat each other with some dignity & tenderness? Although Stranger's generosity was admirable, the "hobby" doesn't necessarily have to cost us one single penny when it comes to respect.
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