I haven't been hobbying long, a little over a year. It was a bit of a second adolence in a lot of ways for me. I never had much sexual experience beyond my monogamous relationship until I tried hobbying. I have a lot of mixed and confusing feelings about my decision hobbying, but one thing is for certain, is the personal growth I have experiehced with the women I have met and spent time with doing this. It opened a side of me that had been pent up for awhile, and hobbying allowed me to express it in a setting where I didn't need to feel ashamed or scared.

Everyone needs to make their own decisions.   The ladies will welcome you back if and when you are ready to resume.  It's actually a really nice thing about the "hobby" - unlike real life - you can always come back.

might consider returning.

I for one understand exactly what you're dealing with right now...I had an extremely limted sexual history before I started lobbying at age 50, and I have found myself emotionally connecting with a provider on more than one occasion...

... from this provider before you went down a path that wasn't right for either of you.

...fortunately I truly love my wife and my affection for me has only grown since I have started "dating". Weird right? Maybe not. My endorphin are up and I am feeling happy! For various reasons my wife and I don't have sex very often but one of the best times lately was about a week after my first "date" And that was not because I was fantasizing about the other women, I can't do that, it's too distracting. It's just because I was more into sex as a result of branching out.

ready to get in a warm bath with a straight razor.  Many, including me, have been where you are.  Its particularly hard in the beginning (first couple of years) to get the proper perspective on the relationship.  I think most veterans will agree with me that the best cure is to see random girls for a little while.  In other words, you see a girl once or twice, and then try another one.   You will notice that same warmth and attention coming from other providers and it will help you understand that, although you may have become friends, it was largely performance art on her part and something all professionals have mastered.  We pay for a fantasy, not reality.  

In my case, I decided the circumstances were ripe (divorced, kids grown up) to go for it.  12 years later, no regrets.

When she said she loves me more than I love her I decided to prove her wrong.  
    I haven't booked a Hooker since that day.  
   
   Since I  still feel  manly  even though I fell in love, I occasionally  look at photos and read reviews to keep my options open, in case she decides she loves me no more and I need a quick fix.
   
   I'd never resort to feeling better with one of her Hot flirty friends ,even if she dumped me.  
   I might be an ass but I have more class and self esteem to resort to that.  
   
     We never know what a Lady has stored in her mind for tomorrow's sunrise.  
   
I can't help but wonder if you told the sparkle in your life how you feel about her.  

beautiful and hot are the same

Beautiful is a compliment.

...have to do with the price of tea in China?

I've had several Asian girlfriends and that doesn't sound to me like something an Asian girl would say. Of course, mine were all hookers. Does that make a difference?

Tell a woman to her face that she was hot.

you should

it's the same

Because my GF is really a 6' 2"  Blonde Russian who was a Hooker with TER reviews before  
I met her. I don't want to take a chance on her adding up my posts, figuring out my identity.  
She still has GF's from TER, and they talk about clients like they're ALL deplorable.  

I would make one comment as well. Yeah, it's easy to allow the emotional attachment to grow too much and one must maintain a health level of emotional discipline and have a level of emotional maturity to fully enjoy the experiences without ultimately confusing the professional from the real. Most of use have been there.

Since he mentioned Asian rather than Chinese, Japanese, Vietnamese, Indian, Indonesian or any other nationality/ethnicity he's clearly talking generic brand so it's the lower priced tea.

kuddos

Could You Enjoy the Rest of Your Life with a Hot Stupid Wife?
    Would you enjoy introducing her to your friends and business associates ?
 If so, within ten years you'll be able to buy extremely lively synthetic dolls to satisfy your cravings.

by being respectful and treating a provider like I would a civvie woman, I get way more than my share of OTC time.  I just had one last week that invited me to see her new apartment.   She made us a light lunch, then said she wanted to show me her bedroom, so we ended up naked for three hours and three pops, then I took her out to dinner.  Because we had sex, I offered her a donation and she handed it back to me, and said I only have to pay her when she's working at her separate incall.  She's on vacation now and invited me over as a friend.  I'll take the gift of the freebie, thank you.  

has an Asian sister?  How does that happen?  Or did I miss something?

So she could be BOTH Asian and Russian.

Ah, the "second adolescence". The pleasure of fucking beautiful women you knew you could never get to first base with when you were a horny teenager but now you can pay for the privilege.