I have been very "sexual" since I can remember with vague fantasies as a child that became more and more focused. These included fantasies of affection and others of control (me in charge, me helpless) so I was and remain a multi directional sinner. At 20, I was a recent college grad, recently moved to NYC to work. At a party, I met a very sensual and attractive woman in her mid forties. She flirted with me and we ended up in he apartment, she ordered me, with a wicked smile, to strip. She caressed my body and had me wild with excitement. She had me kneel before her as she looked into my eyes and slowly reached around me and handcuffed me. Then she put a thick leather collar on me. Then she blindfolded me and fixed my collar to her chair with a chain leash. She stood behind me and whispered that she would have to hurt me badly if I didn't please her. I was wildly excited and also afraid of what she might actually do, She left the room for a while and came back after a while. She kissed my neck, stroked my ass and crotch. She took off the blindfold. She was wearing a garter belt, stockings, heels, and carrying a whip. Things went on for a very long time and was highlighted by her climaxing over and over with me first rimming her and later daty and later rimming her, etc. I was 20 and had multiple climaxes. We ended up living together for two and a half years. She was not a domme, but enjoyed the roles of a sub and of an affectionate lover etc as well. We had a wonderful sexual relationship with her acting as my guide to good technique and, above all, an unselfish attitude concentrating on satisfying her and at times friends of hers and as my life guide (dressing, ordering food and wine, etc.) I eventually moved to Europe and she refused (wisely) to come with me or have me stay with her. ("Don't be silly darling,you are in your early twenties and I will soon have a beard and mustache.") Great lady. I will always love and miss her.
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Although I did not realize it at the time the first relationship that I had where I clearly wanted to be topped was when I was 15/16 with my "first love" and the first guy I slept with. He was a year older than me and we dated for 10 months.
When we began sleeping together, after 5 months being together I consistently asked him to go "harder, deeper, pull my hair, wrap your hand around my neck" etc. He eventually broke up with me because he "couldn't" keep up with me in the bedroom. Go figure.
Right now I am in a relationship and have a wonderful DOM. He is everything that a good sub could ever need or want. A few months ago he collared me and it has deepened our relationship a lot.
This is really the FIRST relationship that I have had where the lines were clearly drawn between myself and my partner. I have several dominant clients and several submissive ones as well. I enjoy being a switch but my natural and more comfortable role is as a submissive.
~Rae
I agree, the term BDSM covers a variety, and I quickly realized what I wanted to try was the sensual dominant, not someone into inflicting pain, scat, blood, or some of the non-pleasurable aspect. Got referred to an under the radar provider who does not like/allow reviews (but had a high quality referral source whom I trusted), and set up first appointment. She greeted me - in a sexy leather outfit, whip in hand, very friendly, personable, intelligent...spent a few minutes talking about what she might do, what I might like, then she launched the session and ordered me to address her further as Godess, and instructed me to disrobe. Then she had me stand naked, while she walked around, "inspecting me", and gently stroking parts of my body, using her whip to gently lift and inspect my cock and balls..definitely a turn-on so far; She then blindfolded me with a light scarf like blindfold that was not too large or heavy and that I could somewhat see thru, and gently pushed me down, asked me to kiss her body all over from toes to head, without missing a spot. I complied, not missing any spots, and by the time I got to her upper thighs, realized that somehow in the course of blindfolding me, she also had stripped, so of course I kissed her pussy lips, ass and every other spot on up to her head top. I was definitely turned on, and she made observations about my obvious arousal. She then guided me by the hand over to a bed, had me lay down, then used some soft cuffs to tie my hands to the headpost, and each leg by the ankle to the footpost. She then proclaimed that she would be putting different parts of her body to my lips, and I was to french kiss whatever she placed there. She begin with a breast, then the other --which I obviously enjoyed, then some fingers, then she turned around and placed her ass on my face...I of course complied, and got to enjoy my first rimming experience, and as i did so, I could feel her pussy juices driping on my neck; while I did this, she periodicaly would play with my cock with the tip of her whip - just enought to keep me aroused and desperately wanting to use my tool and have her touch it more, but she knew when to stop at the point that seemed to tease me the most; she gradually slid her body so that I was performing DATy rather than rimming, and stayed there until she came, taking care in the process to thoroughly drench my face neck and chest with pussy juices. She then relaxed, climbed off me and laid beside me with her feet by my head - next thing I knew, her big toe penetrated my liops and she has me thouroughly suck each toe on each foot. Like rimming, it was something I'd never done before, but she had me so aroused and under her sensual spell (plus tied up so that I knew I had to please her in hopes of eventual relief for me). After that, she climbed atop me again, but uncuffed my hands and instructed me to massage her back - she turned toa reverse cowgirl position, and as I massage her, she began a very slow teasing pussy lip glide up and down my cock, while using one hand to firmly, but not painfuly grab my ball sack. She told me not to cum until she said so, but that didn't last long, and I let he know I could not hold back any further (which I think she intended to be the case), and she quickly shifted from pussylip slide to a hand job that quickly gave me a tremendous relief. The was no FS ending, but the relief was as pleasurable as any i've ever experienced. I've since seen her a few more times and further explored this world, and although she is more expensive than most others, its definitely an experience worth exploring if you can find the right person.
