I've been planning a semi retirement for almost two years now, with the ultimate goal of seguing out of the adult entertainment field, and into my alternate, 'legit' line of work.

Somehow, it just seemed like the right thing to do. After all, we should all know when it's time to hang up our stilletos and put on that business suit, when it's time to retire with grace.

Of course, the funny thing is that I never wanted to retire because of burn out, or stress. I never started to hate my job, or my clients, or myself. I guess it's more that I bought in to the party line about how 'sad' it is when women stay in the business for too long. 'Sad for who?' is something I never thought to ask.

When I met my full time sugardaddy client, it initially seemed like everything clicked into place. One client, a steady income, a semi retirement. Cash flow until my new business was solid, and a graceful way to exit without making a big retirement speech. I thought it would be easy. What I didn't count on was missing it. On missing the excitement. On missing the sex.

It's not the money I miss - I make enough now with one client to substitute for a full monthly schedule of encounters. I'm good finacially, that's for sure.

But, oh... the sex. The anonymous, hot, exciting, different everytime sex.

What is it today? Who is it? A buttoned up banker, so staid and sedate looking, yet with a taste for mommy/son games and a deeply dirty mind? A sweet faced college senior so shy his hands were shaking? A rough and tumble cowboy who wanted my fingers in his ass? Always an adventure, always something new, always a different game.

I don't know why it never occurred to me I'd miss it so much. After all, it's not just the men who can become addicted to this hobby, is it?

Maybe I'll have to start hiring man whores.

- Morgan

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Hey Morgan:
Take a trip to Sarasota.  I will meet you and we can work on the boredom together!!!!!
Don't be entirely left out of the hobby!  I am sure you will have loads of volunteers..

Nobody can skewer a fool like you (I've read your site!) and nobody has a heart as big as yours either.

I for one wish you'd at least come back in spirit-- we certainly miss your postings.

But, of course, that comes from a "mean-spirited" bitch (see thread below), so take it for what it's worth.

hugs to you, my canadian lollipop,

T

You sound great! What is your website?

I too thought I was in the same position as you.  Then something went wrong with the relationship.  I was depressed.  Thought I lost my libido.  The whole time kinda missing it... (although my partner never bored me when it was about sex....ever for his (and my) age).  I think that had more to do with me though now that I look at it.  Boredom is a state of mind you know.  But I can certainly relate.  Now, I'm at the position of wondering if I come back into my massage or just date.  LOL.  You'll be happy (at least for me) to know that my first involvement after much heartache and tears came as as non stop extremely good looking, fun, 31 yo hottie where I didn't feel like I had to put on a show or give my all to a sensual massage.  We just F'd liked bunnies and didn't worry about a thing.  I guess we all need things pumped once in awhile.  Maybe you wanna try some experimental fantasy stuff for your own satisfaction...with or without hub.  Good luck to you.  (good luck to us all)  

a busty massage therapist this side of the mason dixon in PA named suzeeee

You'll find me at home in Ft Lauderdale/Miami,  on tour in Chicago, DC, or ?? And my site is www.discovertabu.com

Welcome to my lair!

and say that I've missed your posts over on EB.  Drop in and say hi some time.

Also, I hate to say it but now you know how us guys feel if we don't get a fix of new female fun every once in a while.

I guess it is God's plan.

If your sugar daddy don't mind, why not dip your toe in the water every now and then?

The water's fine.

Well, you do know I have a weakness for mean spirited bitches. They're so much more fun than sweet natured bunny wabbits.

Plus, my heart's only big because it has to fit in behind these tits. Zzzing!

Anyways, I'm planning on posting more often, whether or not anyone likes it. Ha!

Morgan

I'd start fucking recreationally, but that would just make me kinda slutty.

Heh. Maybe I should take up burlesque - Fonda Slutz would make a great stage name, wouldn't it?

I am glad to see you 'round these parts again, I had missed your posts.

I do have a question though...
What about sweet-natured bitches and mean-spirited bunny wabbits? *grin*

Welcome Back...I look forward to reading your posts again.

Glad to find out you're okay.  I missed the news about semi-retirement.  I've been missing your blog.

Yes, isn't it something?  I've always thought it's not a business like any other because it's also sexual behavior.  It's the oldest profession, as they say, because it's straightforward to sexual behavior, too.  I mean, once Cro-Magnons figured out trade, how quickly would they have figured out  trading material goods for sex?  

We are all shaped by evolution, and someplace in our deep ancestry, we are all evolved from whores.

So I'm not surprised at your dilemma.  

you have very eloquently stated something that I have suspected for the best of providers... and from your reviews (yea, I have looked at 'em over the years...) you are of the "best of providers." What I have suspected is that this "game" is a turn on to ladies as well.  In fact, one of my stripper friends - who is quite bright - loves to be a flirt and tease... with all the attention... and she has stated something very similar to me.  (FTR she has gotten off just giving me a lap dance!)...

so, yea I would suspect that after being exposed to this life, accepting it, and then enjoying it, some of the day-to-day issues that normally come up in a monogamous-surburban lifestyle would be magnified to an unbearable boredom level....  

Gals that come into this business but do not accept it could probably NEVER get your message here.  I have been with a couple of those ladies... but when you find a lady who is enjoying herself... she will always have a fantastic time.... one night, I was with this stunner of a provider - who also had a full time day job... and I must say she conned me into giving her a massage and foot rub for the full hour!  of my time... now that was skilled and she enjoyed every minute of it!  me... I was still waiting for the session to start!  oh, I gave her a great review to boot! who knows!  lol

There is a level of excitement in this biz that cannot be replaced in the civie world... and it sounds like you enjoyed it!  

All I can say, is when ya hire the man-whores... book me some time! lol!!!  but seriously, thanks for an honest perspective...