My excitement is enhanced tremendously by knowing the woman on the video "could" be with me for real. I like her to look "real," as in -- not fake boobs, not fake makeup, not so perfectly plastically put together that she could only possibly be a Los Angeles studio concoction. Amateur is USUALLY "real", but sometimes some major-production porn stars look more girl-next-door than the amateurs. Depends on the individual female, and the production values of the individual video, and is independent of whether it's an amateur or a professional job.

And I love watching cum-shots, particularly facials. I'm not sure why, I just love watching 'em. The few times I've actually provided them in real life, I didn't enjoy it at all. Why waste an orgasm on having your unit mostly stimulated by air and light? Much rather have it inside a completely encompassing orifice for the big event, regardless of the visual show I provide. But if it's not ME that's feeling it, then the visual show IS all that there is. So I love watching cum-shots.

People have told me it's supposed to have something to do with the need to degrade and dominate women, this desire to watch an ejaculation onto a female's face, but I don't really think so. For me, I just "transfer" my excitement into the other guy's unit. So, if he can be seen to be cumming, then I'm excited to "be" cumming. I know it's not real, but it works for me anyway.

Is this what you were asking? :-P