I have come to the realization that I am addicted to love. Not just love, but that "in-love" high you get when certain chemicals fill your brain. I get a high, a walking on air feeling, and that is what this job brings to me.
When I was younger (and dumb and full of cum), I thought this chemical reaction had a deeper meaning. I would meet a man, feel this "high" and think he was the ONE. This is probably why I've been married a few times - I was blinded to our incompatibility, blinded by a chemical "love."
In this industry, I meet a lot of men that are either addicted to lust or addicted to sex. Not too many addicted to love, but they still can enjoy my "high." The ones addicted to lust are the ones that like to dream about sex and hire women to lust over (the sex is sometimes less than the build up) and the ones addicted to sex just want to get their rocks off as often as they can.
I have met people over the years that are addicted to being a victim and they often put themselves in harms way to be victimized. I've know MANY women addicted to DRAMA, shoes, shopping, money, etc.
Sexy calves just make me crazy-in-lust babe....and YOU have some sexy-as-all-hell calves young lady.
The intimacy, Jess. Feeling a beautiful women's breasts on my ribs while I hold her tight, her breath on my neck and her fingernails gently scratching my stomach while we are just holding eachother. The sex is entirely secondary to me, it is the fact that I can "borrow" (lease?) that intimacy with such beautiful women as yourself for those blocks of time that brings me back.
And being able to say "here is what I need , physically and emotionally" and knowing that I am not being judged. You ladies have heard it all, and your answer is not nearly as important as the fact that you are not judgeing me for my fetishes and needs. And I have have found that some of you enjoy and embrace that feeling of being not only desired, but more importantly beng needed (again, at least for that leased block of time). Those are the ones who become ATFs for this guy.
You both summed it up perfectly. I completely understand the lust vs sex comparison and how the buildup to the actual act can sometimes be better that the act itself. Just like nothing can compare to that first kiss.
If there is a relationship between endorphins and exploration, or discovery, then I would consider that an addiction. That desire to see "what's around the next bend" and savor something new. It's the reason I love travel so much.
Good point, heh. I only recently saw a Provider for the first time, and your description is apt, it's a type of exploration. I've only reviewed one of four Providers because I am discovering that I have specific tastes.
My addiction is the ladies, The high of meeting someone new and the buildup to a meeting is what trips my trigger. The experience of just getting to hang out and know you're gonna get lucky and she's not gonna bitch at ya later for leaving you're towel on the floor or forgetting to pick up some crap from the store. Also enjoy slipping into my alternate persona, going from Joe worker grunt to Doctor Love slip in somewhere take care of buisness and revert back to my average self before getting home.
I get a HIGH when I train.....running, surfing, boxing, mma....whatever. I love to workout/train. I think I'm addicted to MAKING LOVE. I love making LOVE to a women. Slowly teasing her, getting her wet, backing off....kissing her....touching her again.....teasing her....getting her wetter....backing off by kissing her. Then slowly sliding my cock in her....just the head of my cock....teasing her....teasing her so bad that she grabs my ass and tries to PUSH me deeper....and I don't let her....teasing her more....then SLOWLY letting her push me deeper....very slowly....I think you get my point. right? It is FUCKING sexy.....I love making love
I took attention given to me, and turned that into something that was never there. I was always the clingy, needy type when I was in high school, because I was always the "other" woman, and never "the woman." I too was married twice, neither of which lasted a year, and found that "love" is not always what we think it is. For one, it's not a "feeling" it's a decision. People who are led by their emotions are generally those who become easily addicted and more easily manipulated. Now, I would have to say I am addicted to reaching success in my personal life, posting on TER, and still those damn cigarettes.
That "need" for a mate in life, is no longer my main focus, because I have had to learn how to live on my own, and find out who I am before I can give anything to another person. Until some of my own issues are resolved, I can't give myself FULLY to another person. So, maybe I am addicted to hobby sex and hobby "in like" because it's temporary. Another human being can't be responsible for filling a void in me, and I think that was my main problem. I was searching for something 'out there' that was already 'in here.'
I have told many people that they need to be able to be happy on their own before they can have any fulfilling relationship. Of course out of all the people I know I should probably be the last person anyone should listen to for relationship advice. lol
Like most hobbyists, I suspect, I love meeting, seeing, feeling and being with beautiful, naked women who enjoy pleasuring and being pleasured by a man, without drama. So, the lovely ladies who find the the escort life to be their true calling, are my addiction.
Golfing is a very distant second to the joys and delights of sexing.
If I were not for work and limited funds, I am sure that I would be an escortaholic!
It's not how great a sexual experience a lady provides; but rather how good she is at providing an inimate connection (albeit temporary) that I find "addicting" and makes me want to see her on a regular basis.
When I was in my 20's and into my 30's it was all about the sex and lust; then I finally "grew up."
I have come to the realization that I am addicted to love. Not just love, but that "in-love" high you get when certain chemicals fill your brain. I get a high, a walking on air feeling, and that is what this job brings to me.
When I was younger (and dumb and full of cum), I thought this chemical reaction had a deeper meaning. I would meet a man, feel this "high" and think he was the ONE. This is probably why I've been married a few times - I was blinded to our incompatibility, blinded by a chemical "love."
In this industry, I meet a lot of men that are either addicted to lust or addicted to sex. Not too many addicted to love, but they still can enjoy my "high." The ones addicted to lust are the ones that like to dream about sex and hire women to lust over (the sex is sometimes less than the build up) and the ones addicted to sex just want to get their rocks off as often as they can.
I have met people over the years that are addicted to being a victim and they often put themselves in harms way to be victimized. I've know MANY women addicted to DRAMA, shoes, shopping, money, etc.
I always get that rush when I am on my way to an appointment. It's like speeding in my car. Or going through river rapids. Ever climb up way too high, then look down on pourpose? Or jump off of a bridge into water. Where if you miss, your going to get hurt? I like being scared. I do stupid things for the thrill of being scared. I knew since I was very little I was addicted to adrenaline. The hobby is much safer than kite surfing, or skydiving. Not quite as extreme. But I get a small dose of that addiction. It's a big reason why I continue to try newer,kinkier things.
Skydiving is the one I may chicken out on though. Damn that scares me too much!! I notice as I get older.. I still have this addiction. But I want to feed it without getting myself killed.
I am addicted to the feeling I get when someone wants me. It can be as simple as meeting someone new, and knowing in the first fifteen minutes that this lady wants me bad. It doesn't happen very often, but when it does it provides an incredible feeling of self worth. The sex is nice, but it is knowing that I am found to be attractive and desirable that is so addictive.
Providers may not care, understand or maybe you're car babes but here goes. I was going to take a hiatus from this lovely hobbie. Due to a recent purchase it came down to all the gorgeous/sexy providers I have come to enjoy in my short time in the hobby and those I'd love to meet vs. this:
2013 Roush Stage 3 Mustang 5.0L RS2300 TVS Supercharger 3.73 rear end 565 hp over 600 on dyno Dual chamber exhaust 20" wheels Performance breaks
Providers my car is a virgin. Ladies I'd like to hear from you if you'd be willing to assist me in my cars first experience.
I bought the car and planned on not hobbying. Then IT happened.. A provider I have wanted to see but haven't pinged me saying she was available (tomorrow) and a city girl I have been dreaming about is on her way to Cleveland and I'll see her on Monday. So I ask, is there a way to kick the habit? Do I even want to kick the habit? Can I have both - that's the tough one. On and no I can't just see a provider every so often - again they're my drug.
I have come to the realization that I am addicted to love. Not just love, but that "in-love" high you get when certain chemicals fill your brain. I get a high, a walking on air feeling, and that is what this job brings to me.
When I was younger (and dumb and full of cum), I thought this chemical reaction had a deeper meaning. I would meet a man, feel this "high" and think he was the ONE. This is probably why I've been married a few times - I was blinded to our incompatibility, blinded by a chemical "love."
In this industry, I meet a lot of men that are either addicted to lust or addicted to sex. Not too many addicted to love, but they still can enjoy my "high." The ones addicted to lust are the ones that like to dream about sex and hire women to lust over (the sex is sometimes less than the build up) and the ones addicted to sex just want to get their rocks off as often as they can.
I have met people over the years that are addicted to being a victim and they often put themselves in harms way to be victimized. I've know MANY women addicted to DRAMA, shoes, shopping, money, etc.
I have come to the realization that I am addicted to love. Not just love, but that "in-love" high you get when certain chemicals fill your brain. I get a high, a walking on air feeling, and that is what this job brings to me.
When I was younger (and dumb and full of cum), I thought this chemical reaction had a deeper meaning. I would meet a man, feel this "high" and think he was the ONE. This is probably why I've been married a few times - I was blinded to our incompatibility, blinded by a chemical "love."
In this industry, I meet a lot of men that are either addicted to lust or addicted to sex. Not too many addicted to love, but they still can enjoy my "high." The ones addicted to lust are the ones that like to dream about sex and hire women to lust over (the sex is sometimes less than the build up) and the ones addicted to sex just want to get their rocks off as often as they can.
I have met people over the years that are addicted to being a victim and they often put themselves in harms way to be victimized. I've know MANY women addicted to DRAMA, shoes, shopping, money, etc.
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